양초||kth x jjk

*fourteen*

(A/n this is probably the worst chapter of this book, i'm sorry)

everybody was crying.

namjoon couldn't believe teahyung's father would do such a cruel thing. his brain could not comprehend the fact that jungkook would be dying practically because his boyfriend's father killed him.

seokjin was devastated. he cared for jungkook like for his own son. he'd gotten used to having him around all the time that he couldn't even imagine to try to imagine his life without him.

yoongi wasn't sure who to feel the worst for. there was jungkook, who was going to die for sure, there was taehyung, who was going to loose his boyfriend, there were namjoon and seokjin, who were practically jungkook's second parents. but then, there was jimin. yoongi still had their conversation fresh in mind and he couldn't help but feel so bad and worried. the orange haired boy was going to loose yet another love. and yoongi was scared that the younger would not be able to make it.

and he was not far from the truth.

jimin didn't even feel alive anymore. his whole world crushed when he heard jungkook's story, saw his pale face and empty stare. his forced smile. hos reassuring that he was going to be okay.

jimin didn't know what to believe anymore.

in fact, everything was a lie to him now. the sun outside signalizing a beautiful day. jungkook's light smile. little kids' happy voices. the birds' singing.

there was no reason, no reason at all, to be happy. there was no reason to live anymore.

everything was wrong.

nobody could wrap their mind around the fact that jungkook...was practically already dead.

"did my father really do this?" taehyung whispered and jungkook shut his eyes.

he didn't want taehyung to hate his father. no matter how bad person the man was, jungkook still somehow admired his deep love for his eldest son.

and that was what taehyung was thinking about the whole time. his newborn hatred towards his father. how could he? how dare he make him do this without even asking and consulting this with him first?

taehyung would, obviously, not agree. that was probably the reason. but still. how could he make him practically eat another person?

"so basically." namjoon whispered shakily. "y-you sacrificed yourself for taehyung?"

"yes. though i didn't know it was him at first. all i wanted was to escape. to be with hobi and my brother again..."

"b-but what about taehyung now? what will happen to him?" namjoon was, once again, several thoughts ahead of the others.

"taehyung will...i-" jungkook couldn't form a sentence. he knew he would never be able to talk openly about his boyfriend's possible death. it hurt too much knowing he was the reason the older couldn't stay alive longer. it was him who couldn't keep him alive longer.

"if jungkook's dying, i will die too" taehyung stated firmly.

"no!" jimin suddenly screamed as he jumped up and ran over taehyung to embrace him in a desperate hug. "no, taetae, no no no no no, i can't lose you too, no! please..."

jungkook was crying his eyes out. seeing jimin he realized he failed yet another mission in his life.

jimin didn't have a boyfriend and he was most probably going to loose his best friend too. and his love.

jimin had always been that kind of a person who needed to be taken care of. he needed his friends more than anything, he needed to be loved and what would really improve his life would be a loving boyfriend or girlfriend.

jungkook knew how much jimin depended on taehyung, his best friend. the two of them were inseparable, they shared each other's secrets, fears, lives. and now that jungkook thought about it, he wasn't sure if jimin would be able to get through this alone. namjoon, seokjin and yoongi would need to do their very best to help him. he'll need them more than ever.

jungkook felt so guilty he wouldn't be able to be there for one of his best friends during one of the hardest moments of his life. he felt guilty that he'd be the one to cause all of this.

"jiminie. jiminie-ah..." taehyung's voice turned soft as he returned the hug. "i can't change that... the only way for me to stay alive is to eat people, and i can't do that jimin. i can't." taehyung was now sobbing too.

"tae-taehyung-ah. i love you s-so much, you're my best friend. i love you. i cannot loose you. i love you too much."

jungkook ingored the wind blowing from the opened window. he ignored the goosebumps forming from the chilly air crashing with his soft skin. the sight of jimin and taehyung, his two best friends, was heartbreaking. jungkook watched them, crying uncontrollably into each other's chests, hoping he could do something, anything, to cheer them up.

but he couldn't.

jungkook didn't even realize he was sobbing until taehyung turned away from jimin and wiped his tears away gently before pulling him into the hug too. the hyungs soon joined too and the boys just sat there and cried. they all completely lost track of time. they just sat there, cried and comforted each other.

and somehow, it felt happy.

"guys?" jungkook's little voice echoed through the room. everybody immediately turned their attention to him.

"are you okay? does something hurt? are you ha-"

"tae, i'm fine" jungkook cut off his boyfriend and sent him another one of his weak smiles.

"what's up then?"

"i- well, we still have a few weeks left. and i just... i want to spend it with you. you know, before hoseok d-died, he always said that we would be happy as long as we love and support each other. he trutly believed that we could get through anything. and i know he was right. you know, he might be dead, but it still feels as if he's with us. and i promise me and taehyung won't ever leave you neither. i just... want you all to be happy. together." jungkook sniffled.

seokjin forced a smile onto his face.

"it... is really hard imagining life without the two of you. in fact, it's pretty impossible. but i promise we will try. for you, for tae, for hoseok. after all, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?"