Daily Malec Fix Two

2. Apologies and Broken Hearts

Answer: I get super calm and quiet. Usually writing helps me deal though.

Alec opened his mouth and then closed it before repeating the action another two times.

"You look like a drowning fish." Magnus took a swig of the Amber liquid in a bottle.

"Fish can't drown." Alec stated without thinking.

"And correcting me seems like a good idea how?" Magnus rolled his eyes before giving Alec a somber frown. "Alexander, go home."

"I will but first I have something to say." Alec bit his tongue to hold back the tears that he had never had to fight before.

"You keep saying that yet so far you've said nothing."

"Okay, here goes. Um, uh, Magnus can you look at me?" Alec's voice caused the hair on Magnus's neck stand on end. "Please?"

Magnus looked into those blue eyes; the eyes that he knew he could never forget. "I'm listening."

"I'm not sorry." Alec finally blurted.

"That's a great start." Magnus snorted then glared. He was pissed; he couldn't laugh.

"What I mean is I'm not sorry for what I said this morning. It was the truth and I know it hurt but it was better than a comforting lie."

"You told me that you don't care (anyone know the song: idfc) about me. You said that I am simply a distraction and a my personal favorite. What was it? Oh yeah: I am a glittery fool standing beneath a falling piano." Magnus took another drink.

"Magnus, I may not be sorry for what I said but I am sorry for my execution and for hurting you. We started this knowing that it wouldn't last-" Alec slammed his jaw shut when Magnus leapt up and shoved his finger into Alec's chest.

"And there it is again. Alexander, I didn't start this expecting it to fail. I thought that we could be forever even if it was a short forever it would last."

"You're immortal. I'll die."

"Love doesn't simply cease to exist becuase of death or what is the point in even living. Shadowhunters are trained to bury their emotions because they're distractions but without them you're a spineless soldier created to die." Magnus held his hand up. "Let me finish."

"Your problem is that you focus solely on the end of things so you miss the beginning and middle. You miss out on so much, Alec, I was willing to forgive you for what you said, in fact I already have. I don't care about that. What kills me is that you are willing to throw away my heart because you think you're too good for it." Magnus didn't hide the tears that streamed down his face as he continued. "I have been treated like shit my entire long life. I'm used to it, but I for some reason thought that you were different. I thought that you could love me. But, I'm still the yellow eyed boy who destroyed his family by simple existing."

"Magnus," Alec whispered.

"Just go home. Let me get drunk in peace." Magnus shook his head and stepped away.

Alec grabbed Magnus's hand so quickly that the warlock jumped. "Magnus, you're the one. You're far too good for me. That's why I left. I don't know how to do this. I'm broken or something. You deserve someone who can love you without being afraid. You deserve to be happy. You deserve someone who knows how to love. I'm not him."

Magnus wiped the tear from Alec's cheek. "But don't you see, you are the only person who has ever truly, unselffishly loved me. And if you weren't such an idiot you'd be with me in my bed right now instead of crying."

Alec sighed and collapsed against Magnus.  They both knew that their fight wasn't over, but they knew that they would survive it.

"I'm so Sorry." Alec kissed Magnus's neck where his face was buried.

"I love you too." Magnus lifted Alec's chin and kissed him sweetly.

Hope I fixed it for you all! The next ones will be happy, funny, and sweet. Promise!

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