I should be happy. I should be celebrating. I spun the letter in my hands letting my heart drop a little more each time I saw the words. I kept repeating the words "I should be happy.I was accepted" in my head but each time I did visions of Hayes and I danced across my eyelids. ** flash back ** Hayes threw his head back laughing. His smile stretched ear to ear. I couldn't help but laugh as I leaned into his chest and we relaxed back into the couch. In this moment Hayes & I had never been happier in our year and a half of dating. Okay so that was completely over exaggerated, but its the simpliest of things that make me crazy happy. His fingers ran through my hair as we watched Family Guy. ***end I was truly happy with him...
The fear started to bubble in my chest as the tips of my knuckles hit the door. With every knock, my heart seemed to drop closer to my feet. I could hear Hayes' footsteps softly patter against the floor as he came closer to the door only making my heart beat accel. My head started to spin as the door slowly opened and hayes peeked out for a second before he swung the door wide and smiled widely.
"Allyyyy!" Hayes laughed and opened his arms for a second. I didn't move much. Quickly then hayes hugged me tightly and i could do anything but hug him a little which only broke my heart more."hey baby youre not looking too good" Hayes hands gently grasped my shoulders as he looked down his eyes darting across my face. "ALly whats wrong" he sighed softly as he pulled me over to the couch making me sit.
"Hayes...im sorry. I really love you please don't think that i dont" i couldnt look up at this point the air around me was heavier than ever and it was driving me crazy.
"Ally youre scaring me whats going on' his hand rested softly on my knee and i could hear the small cracks in his soft voice.
"I got accepted to tennessee..." i tried my hardest to sound a little happy.
"Oh my god Ally!! Thats amazing baby! Im so proud of yo.....o-oh..." Hayes had gotten so excited for a minute there until he really process what this meant. Hayes is attending college at UCLA and Tennessee is pretty far from Los Angeles... "Ally... I'm so happy for you...come here baby"
I fell into his arm and everything I had bottled inside came flooding out my eyes " You're happy everyone else happy for me but I can't be happy for me. Hayes I don't wanna loose you"
"Look ally you're never gonna loose me. I'll always be here for you I promise..." hayes swiped his thumb across my cheeks taking the tear away After a few hours of talking with Hayes I looked him in the eyes and I could tell we both knew what had to happen. I could clearly see the pain in his eyes as he nodded. "So this is it?...." My voice broke as I tried to hardest to hold down the raging emotions building up inside me.
"I mean... it has to be at this point Ally.... You're leaving." Hayes' whole body looked completely tense but he showed absolutely zero emotion. I've seen Hayes sad and mad and everything yet I've never seen him like this. I've never not been able to read Hayes... I spun on my heels and my eyes were set on the door. I need to get out of here as soon as I possibly can. Despite how much I wanted to get out I've never felt this kind of heart break... I guess it's true when they say there's nothing worse than breaking up when you're still in love
Hayes POV
And as i watched the plane took off getting farther and farther from the ground, and with the plane went the girl i really loved. The pit in my chest grew and the air around grew heavy as I watched the love of my life leave. I want to be happy for her . i wish i knew how to make this hurt less. Ally has been such a big part of my life and it really really hurts to know that her life is moving on and I'm stuck here. Ally is off on her way to adventure to college to study music at the university of Tennessee but even though I saw this coming it still hurts like hell. The simple thought that Ally just got on plane to live her life without me tore me in two. I quickly wiped the few tears running down my cheeks as I looked at my phone and typed. Long message . " I wish I could make it all better. There were so many things I wanted tell you before you got the plane today ...I wish I could've made you stay. Part of me is still hoping this was all some kind of bad dream because I love you. I know it's a little, well a lot too late but I want you to know that I am willing to sacrifice everything in the world to make us work when you get back from college. I know that might now be what you wanna here but You can say we'll be together ...Someday... Nothing lasts forever. Nothing stays the same. Long distance is hard. I will never stop loving you but to save us both from heart break I think it's best if we both really try and date other people."
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