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"You and Hayes have anything classes together this year Lois" my mom smiled soft as I came into the kitchen.
"I dunno? Mom I already told you we don't talk anymore we haven't in like ...a year?" I sighed softly and ran my hand through my hair. Hayes and I grew up as friends and all but last year we had no classes together and just the sophomore slump kinda got to us both with crazy stress. We just didn't have time to hangout anymore...It honestly sucked. As much as I would hate to admit it I pretty always had a crush on Hayes so It all kinda hurt. Seeing him in the halls with his new friends... seeing the guy is turned into within the last year has really sucked. This Hayes with this bad reputation with all the students and teachers.. the Hayes failing every class imaginable and throwing parties all the time. That wasn't the Hayes I knew. I hated it. I don't know if I hated it because I was mad or if I hated it because I was worried...I think it was a little both. I definitely hated hearing all the stories of Hayes having sex with endless amounts of girls.
"I gotta go, see you after school ma.." Tossed my backpack over my shoulder and walked out to my car Sighing to myself a little.
I tried my hardest to feed through the crowds of people catching up with eachother because I just wanted to get to my friend groups' area . I walked up to the table my friends are all usually at I kinda froze there... Hayes was there and my friends weren't. Hayes sat his shoulders kinda slumped as he was kinda listening to his friend talk.
"Lois! Over here" one of my friends called singalong me to the group.
My heart started pounding in my chest as Hayes looked up at me his head resting in his hands. His eyes met mine and could feel the panic building from my toes to my head . I wanted to look away and ignore him like he ignored me for the past year but I couldn't I couldn't look away . And with every second I looked at it I could feel all the memories from growing up with him come back slowly . The nights we'd stay up laughing and messing around. All the pranks we pulled on eachother and on other people. My heart raced and I could feel his gaze stay glued to me as my friends started to pull me away. I didn't know what to do part of me felt like I was still asleep, like none of this could even be close to real life. A year later he and I see eachother and suddenly all those feeling I had been working on ignoring the feeling I had developed for Hayes came back.
" Lois what Was that..." Trianna mumbled softly as she glanced back " why is grier still looking at you? What the fuck..." she laughed a little and I just shook my head .
"Nothing I'm gonna head to home room early..." I tried my beat to balance myself through the crowds despite the slight bit of dizziness that started to take over me.
I got to my class safely and sat down quickly just trying to pull myself together
"Hey Lois" Hayes said smiling a little as he sat down at the desk next to me.
FUCK
"Uhm hey Hayes..." I sat small and looked away taking quite a sudden serious interest in the projected computer screen in the front of class...
It was pretty awkward all class despite and the attempt to engage in conversation... it had just been so long and I haven't really processed it all. And by the end of class when everyone left my mind was spinning . Hayes started to get up and I grabbed his forearm keeping him back.
"Why are you talking to me Hayes? Why now? Why not any time in the past year? Why not when I told you I needed you? When I needed help? Why'd you just let it happen? I thought we were friends hayes and then we grew so far apart I didn't know you. I lik- I saw you walking around and it's like I was invisible to you. You had this fucking bad boy facade all of a sudden and I felt like I didn't even know who Hayes Grier was anymore.... why start now? I don't understand how you can be so fucking confusing now Hayes... just tell me why you wanna talk to me all of a sudden"
Hayes looked up at me as he stood up grabbing his backpack making his gaze go from lower to him pretty much hover over me.
" I don't know what happened this morning but I saw you and I... I felt bad and I felt... I don't know I just missed you. I thought we could fix it"
"Hayes-" I started but was cut off by a passing teacher
"Hey kids! Get out of that class without an adult"
"Can I come over... just talk after school today Lois... please" he said as we both walked out the class.
"Fine..." I sighed and moved on to my next class still distracted and thinking about Hayes. I didn't know what to feel right now.
