Alex's POV
I don't think she realizes, no one realize they can do something at first. She doesn't realize no one can stay mad at her. Not if they truly know her. Sam couldn't, even after Brooklyn broke something so special between the two. She's oblivious to things that are of great importance.
"Hey...you okay, like what's on your mind you've been staring at the wall for five minutes."
"Does that mean you've been staring at me for the last five minutes?" She chuckled and nodded. "I guess it does. Really though, what's wrong?" She had a small smile on her face. One not like most, one people usually give her. She gave me a smile of trust, as idshe was ready for whatever I needed to tell her.
"Kid, you don't realize what a good life you have sometimes, I know that you've lost so many people and that you've gone through some tough things, but-"
"Alex...I do realize how good of a life I have."
"So you realize, no matter what you do-"
"I'm always forgiven, that people can't dislike me, have you ever heard of the Athenian Alcabides? Alcabides was a Athenian Aristocrat, rich, young, good looking-"
"Are you describing yourself?" She laughed and shook her head. "He did all sorts of things, won battles, fleed cities, would come back many times, and again Athens would trust him, put him as general, he would win everytime, he would be in persia fueling both Sparta and Athens, tricking the persians, but still he would be forgiven by Athens atleast. One time he wasn't as lucky...he retreated to a place away from everyone. He was hunted down, house set on fire, got out of bed ran out of the house, he died swinging...after all the times he was forgiven there was a point that everyone snapped....
I don't wanna be Alcabides, I don't want to be someone who does great things, but ruins it by losing trust. I don't want people to snap on me, yet I can't control myself..."
"I know...I won't snap on you, I promise." I grabbed her hands and gave them a light squeeze. She leaned against my side and let out a big sigh.
"Are you ever scared that one day...one day everything will change, but not in a good way. Everything goes wrong, everything goes the opposite of how it should...I've lived that day too many times."
I wrapped my arms around each side of her and smiled. I placed a kiss on her forehead and rested my head on hers. "I can only do so much, but if I can...I'll keep that from happening."
"I know...you and Christen are something special, you're not just the blue eyed girl from diamond bar who plays soccer, some people need to see that."
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"Are you ready to go?"
A small frown fell on her face. "We both know that's a no, I don't wanna leave you Alex."
Our stay in Dallas was amazing. Between just staying at her house and messing on the field. I was flying to Orlando and she was going back to Chino Hills. Chino Hills was famous because of the Ball family, which I'm glad she's had no interaction with, but now it's more famous because of her.
"It's been fun, but don't worry next camp we'll be back and playing together again."
"Alex, about that...I-I...I'm possibly gonna be playing with the U-20 team, because their world cups..."
"What about- I'm happy for you, really I am, but Brooklyn what about the qualifiers for our World Cup-"
"Alex...Listen it's not gonna be our World Cup, it's yours, this one is mine..I really need you to understand, I don't think I should be on this team yet, I really enjoyed playing on the U-20, maybe I'll go to the U-23, but I can't do the senior level, I think it's for the best."
"Is that-if that's the best for you, if that's what you think, than do it, but remember one thing, you belong on the senior team, you're good enough, how can you not see that?"
"This isn't a skill level thing, this is a maturity level thing. I was hoping you would understand."
"Maturity level, Brooklyn that's bullshit, you're one of the most mature kids I know-"
"Kid, kid! Exactly that, I'm just a kid, everyone on the team on the team treats me like a baby! I'm not fucking three. I know I'm younger, and I think that's why I don't belong!"
"You belong on this team, I want you on my team, I wanna be on your team, we don't need to end this in fighting."
"I agree...I wanna be on your team, but I don't wanna be on a team of twenty year olds, I'm not even near your ages. It's too far of an age gap. Fuck Alex I've been crushing on your teammate until reality hits me that she's like seven years older than me. I can't do it."
"You like Steph?"
"Do you really need to ask that question, I didn't even say who and you guessed. Yes, I mean, I don't honestly know." She let out a sigh and closed her eyes. "I really just need someone to understand."
"I understand that the life you've had has never been easy on you, but I also know you, you can get through anything, I'll be there for you, call me anytime. Okay, I'll be there to understand the understandable."
She gave me a small smile and nod. Oh why is it so hard for peopls to understand?
