diary? • jicheol [on hold]

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HE gripped my waist and carried me to put on his table. Namumula ang mukhang napanganga na lang ako sa kanya ng tumayo siya sa pagitan ng mga hita ko.

"Choi Seungcheo-"

He descended his face on mine, sealing my lips with his. I gasped. He kissed me deep, his tounge probing inside my mouth coaxing every edges and corners which no one had ever licked yet. I moaned.

I haven't wrote anything about this, but it's kinda close to Entry No. 5. This is crazy.

Crazy pleasurable.

I gasped when I felt his hands inside my shirt, brushing against my skin. Every touch seems to burn everything it gone to and I can feel my blood already rushing south.
Bago pa man lumalim ang halikan namin ay pinutol ko na. Parehas kaming hinihingal.

"Y-Yung kamay mo," I muttered.

Instead of pulling it out, I felt it reaching up and thumbing my nipple. I gasped.

"Choi Seungcheol!," I warned.

He just laughed. Nag-iinit ang mga pisnging itinulak ko siya pero di pa rin siya natinag, sa halip ay mas dumikit pa siya sa akin. Gahd?! Ayun na ang fes ng papsi niyo nasa leeg ko at humahalik halik?!

My eyes rolled back when I felt him nipping and sucking my neck. A lost moan escaped my lips, wrecking the whole room's disturbing silence.

Shit. Is he giving me a hickey? Damn, he can't. He shouldn't. He's not. Someone might see. Mingyu might see. Shems.
But it feels really really good. What the heck?

"Lee Jihoon?," he breathed on my collar.
I tilted my head and hummed, ""Hm?"

His fingers went to the hem of my shirt down to the button of my pants. My breathing ragged, anticipation rose inside me as heat spread just below his palms. My toes curled.

"I'm hrny asf," he said.

"JEONGHANNIE, what's asf?," I asked, my cheeks flaring because of what I heard and what I asked.

He chuckled. He placed his arms around my torso and pulled me close to him. I could feel his fingers teasing me, pressing my buds against my polo shirt. Mas nag-init ang mga pisngi ko.

He is making me feel different again. My heart felt like it was going to burst inside its' cage.

"As fck. You don't know that, too?," he whispered on my ear.

I bit my lip and nodded. He chuckled again. I pouted.
He's going to tease me again. Then our lessons will follow up. And we we'll be back to following these two to watch their sessions and find new topics and lessons. Then lessons again. And everything becomes a cycle.

"Cute, Jisoo," he said. He kissed the tip of my nose and smiled. "You're making me hrny too. You know that?"

I couldn't look at him, my cheeks are threatening to explode in ounces of shyness. Jeonghannie is too blunt, he's always making me red (╯︵╰,)

"Stop it, Hannie," I said, almost a whisper.

Natawa siya ng mahina. He pecked on my lips again before he came back peeping on the little hole just on the wall beside his territory/table in the room. Inilapit ko naman ang tenga ko sa mas maliit pang butas sa tabi nun, my face directed to Jeonghan's side view.

It's always the position. I like watching him from a close view, he always looked like a god or a demigod. He's so beautiful and gorgeous at the same time.

I heard moans and Jihoon's thrashes. A weird sound came out from him making me wince and think if I sounded like that when Jeonghan was pleasuring me. I think I sound like that sometimes, it's...embarassing. But Jeonghan said I sounded wonderful.

"Ang ingay pala ni Lee Jihoon. At bakit nakatakip si Cheol?! Di ko makita yung kinakain niya," rinig kong reklamo ni Han.

I frowned for a moment to process what he said. And I felt a bit disappointed and a lot annoyed when I realized what he was talking about. I don't know what it was but I felt a pang of pain in my chest and I knew my ego was somehow hurt too.

I moved away from the wall and stared at Jeonghan who is still busy peeping on the hole. His face is flushed red. I looked down on his brilliance and it was bulging from the tight leather pants he's wearing. I bit my lip when tears started burning my eyes.

Does Jeonghan like Jihoonie? Did he get rock hard because of Jihoonie? Does Jihoonie make him hrny too?

My lips quivered. A sob threatened to escape my tightening throat. I sniffed, but he didn't hear. A lone tear fell from my eye making me blink and wipe it fast. But another followed and another and another until I couldn't hold all of them anymore.

Bakit ako umiiyak? Why am I hurt?
Still, Jeonghan didn't notice. I smiled bitterly.
Busy pa siya sa panonood kay Jihoonie. Nakalimutan na niya yata ako.

Without letting him know, I walked out.
I'm not enough for Hannie. Maybe because I'm stupid and childish and inexperienced and innocent asf. I hate myself.

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Ran

Buset. Pag may nararamdaman kang mali o di maganda magsabi ka okay???? Masama kinikimkim yan.

Ang feeling q eh aq tong di nagsasalita pag masama loob q (°∀°)b

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