Ezra's Depression

Chapter 3

Ezra p.o.v

I closed my eyes. The air was hitting my face as I was falling to my death. I didn't feel fear. I didn't feel pain. I didn't feel panic. I felt happiness. The first time in years. I had forgot how it was! I smiled. Soon I'll be pain free. I smiled as I kept falling. Then I felt two invisible arm shoving me up. I saw Kanan using the force to get me. No, no, no! That's not what I want! The next second I was in Kanan's arms as he embraced me. But I didn't feel him. I didn't feel anything.

"Ezra I-I'm sorry, so sorry"

"K-K-Kanan?"

He got up and helped me to my feet.

"Lets get you to the med bay so we can make sure that you're okay"

I didn't answer. He took my hand and took me to the med bay. Hera came rushing and started checking me all over my body. She asked me something but I didn't hear. My mind could concentrate in one thing. I failed. I jerked around in fear when a hand touched my shoulder. I looked up at Kanan who took his hand away when I looked at him with fear. I quickly got up and ran to my room. I locked the door. I took a blade of my pocket and some bandages. I started cutting.

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A knock on my door was heard but I kept on cutting.
I cutted and cutted, blood was running all over my hands. I took the bandages but then I threw them away. This time there's no coming back. With difficulty I  walked till my bed and with shaking hands I took my note book and my pencil. The knocking stopped and was replaced by Kanan's kind voice.

"Ezra open the door please we need to talk"

I wanted to answer. To tell him to leave. To tell him that I didn't want him to see me like this. But I couldn't. I would blacked out by any minute.

"Ezra, I know something is wrong. Please let me help you"

I couldn't feel my legs and I fell on the floor. I picked up my pencil and I started to write.

Those are lyrics from a song. The song calle"her last words".
I had to change something lyrics to fit in the story but please hear the normal song.
I'm sorry Kanan but this world it's just not my place.
I've tried so long to fix this and fit in.
I came to realize this world's full of sin.
There's nothing for me here.
I'm just a waste of space.
I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race.
It's a disgrace.
I was misplaced.
Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place.
It's OK though cause you'll see me soon.
You'll know when your time has come just look at the moon.
As it shines bright throughout the night and remember everyone facing their own fight.
But I can't deal with the pain I'm not a fighter.
You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter.
So let the world know that I died in vain because the world around me is the one to blame.
And I know that in a year you'll forever I'm gone, cause I'm not really something to be dwell on.
My presence on this world is not needed any longer and if anything I hope this makes you stronger.
Your the best friend that I ever had and it's a shame that I had to make you so very sad.
Just remember that you mean everything to me and to my heart you're the only one that helds the key.
Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write and yes I lost my fight but please just hold on tight.
I'm watching you from the clouds above and sending down the purest and whitest dove to wach over you and be my helpful eye.
So this is it world goodbye.

I closed the notebook and hold it tight. Everything was blurry I heared the door opening. Before I blacked out I heared a voice calling my name and touching my face. Someone is picking me up then lays me in something soft. Then I heard that voice wishper something again. It has to be Kanan. I couldn't hear a lot but I heared Four words that made my heart stop.

"I love you son"

I fell into the darkness with one though.

What have I done.

To be continued.