Innocence

Chapter 16

As another sob forced it's way up my throat, I pushed it back down, ignoring it.

After I ran out on the boys, I locked myself in a bedroom and leant against the locked door. I hugged my legs to my chest and cried to my heart's content.

I'm not very sure why I'm acting the way I am.

Sometimes my emotions get the best of me, and I can't seem to keep control.

When my dad used to get angry..he would throw things..punch things, etc.

When my mom used to get angry, she would cry. She cried and cried, just let it all out.

Well when they had me, I got them both.

So now when I get angry, there's a 50% chance of physical anger... Or 50% chance of emotional anger. Sometimes.. They arrive at the same time. I never know which is going to happen, until my anger has past.

Just then my phone buzzes.

I pick it up to see a notification from one of my apps.

Period app.

I clicked on the app, reading all it said.

"Seeing your mood changes have been frequent, we think mother nature may hit you quite sooner than you expected! Be ready from the days 5th-10th....details may vary depending on person and human health. Click here if you need more information on how to be prepared for your period!"

I let my head roll back and hit on the wood door. I grunted before sending my phone flying through the air. It hit a wall, and fell to the ground.

Thank Goodness for otter boxes..otherwise, my phone would have been cracked.

"FÛCK!" I yelled a curse word that I haven't in a long time.

Living with these boys and their hormones, and now my hormones mixed in with it...And my past.. Anger has officially consumed me.

I ran to the bed and threw the sheets off the cover and I screamed out loud.

"WHY ME?!" I yelled.

Okay, you need to chill..

I threw a pillow at the wooden door before slumping next to the bed and sobbing. And that's where we started this chapter.

"Did she just yell 'Fûck'?" I heard a voice outside of my door ask.

"I think so..."

"What?! No way. She never curses."

"Something's wrong. Guys, go get Jax" I heard Seth order. I heard footsteps but kept sobbing.

It's the 4th. I don't want my period. My periods are always terrible. I sometimes have to stay home, because I just simply can't go anywhere. Cramps are terrible for me..And mood swings..Well..This is one of them.

I'm crying like a baby just thinking of the pain my cramps will bring.

A knock at the door pulled my thoughts from my soon to be cramps and trains in on a voice.

"Princess?" Jax asked softly. I sniffed and tears flowed down my face freely.

I stayed quiet as I heard Jax knock again.

"If you don't open the door, I will kick it in." He said truthfully.

I slowly got up and drug my feet to the door.

I then swung it open to see Jax nervous and curious boys behind him.

"What?" I asked sadly. Jax's eyebrows scrunched together.