Innocence

Chapter 47 (Mature)

*MAY CONTAIN SLIGHT MATURE CONTENT*

Brooklyn's POV:

I couldn't stop. I couldn't stop thinking about how they treated me. I was treated like an abused dog..only they raped me..

Surely it shouldn't feel like that with the one you love..

I felt violated..I felt unsafe..

Is that what sex is? Does it make you feel violated?

All my life that's all I've known. Is violation.

As I stare into Jax's eyes, I realize I want the answers. I need to know if it's different. Maybe it will feel different with Jax.

All the other times..made me feel dirty.

Ive heard many stories that talked about how amazing sex is.

It is not amazing. It makes you feel dirty..maybe it will feel different with Jax.

Maybe..

But what if it doesn't.

What if it feels the same with him as it did with Drew and Mike?

My vision tunneled back to Jax's face.

His eyes held the compassion of lust. I'm sure mine might have looked the same...only with a little bit of the 'Im-currently-going-down-memory-lane' look.

I wanna forget...I only hope Jax could help with that.

Jax opened his mouth as his eyes were locked on mine.

"A-Are you sure? You're going through something traumatizing." He stuttered.

I sighed.

"What is wrong with you Jax? When we first met, you wanted to get all over me even when I said no...but now when I'm telling you I want you..you're hesitant." I blinked once at him after I finished my say.

"I'm not hesitant. I'm just making sure this is what you want. It's different. There's a different feeling baby. I promise." Jax said as he stared straight into my eyes.

*Start of mature content* Read at your own risk.

Currently, Jax is sitting up on the edge of the bed, and I am sitting on the edge of his lap.

I slowly bit my lip, and watched Jax's eyes follow the action.

His eyes dilated, and he quickly pulled his eyes back up to my eyes.

"Prove it." I demanded him.

Jax's eyes slightly widened as he processed exactly what I said.

He then licked his lips as his eyes went back down to my lips.

I slightly smiled, and that's when it happened.

Jax leant in and pressed his lips against mine in a firework blowing kiss.

I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of his lips on mine.

Our mouths moved in sync as he put one of his large hands behind the back of my head, and held me closer to him.

He then tilted his head to the side, deepening the kiss even further.

His tongue came out of his mouth and gently swiped my bottom lip.

I denied him access, and he kept kissing me.

I knew I teased him with not granting him access...but..

Jax slowly leaned back until his back rested against the bed.

My body obeyed gravity, and laid against his chest.