In and Out |Dave East| editing.

Chapter 38

Excuse any fuck ups.

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Slowly opening my eyes I groaned as pain shot through my arm. Realizing that I was in a hospital bed. Trying to get up I noticed my arm was handcuffed to the bed.

Looking at the handcuffs confusingly I didn't even know why I was in here.

Looking around the room I noticed my other arm was in a sling.

The door all of a sudden opened and in came a doctor and my therapist.

"Why am I hea'."

Dr. Malone sat next to me.

"What do you remember."

I shrugged. "It's a blur. What happened to my arm. Why is this one cuffed."

Dr. Malone looked towards the doctor.

"Ms. Alexander you have been diagnosed with DID, which means.."

"Dissociative Identity Disorder." I finished. What he was saying was nothing new, I knew what I had, I just didn't like taking the meds.

"You were freaking out so we had to cuff you. We have yo medication here and you are mandatory to take these meds and check in with your therapist so she can document everything."

"And if I don't." I was honestly curious to know cause I had a habit of stopping.

"Then we would be forced to have you committed."

I scoffed glancing at Dr. Malone who held a sad expression.

"How long I been in hea'."

"Three days. Jaycean you know that I look at you like your my own and I really need you to stay on your medication. I don't want a replay of what happened last night."

I squinted my eyes at her. "I do go to school in N'Warlens, how am I suppose to check in."

She pulled out some papers. "I got in touch with a friend down there that you can check in with and he'll let me know everything."

I rolled my eyes. "Why is my arm in this hea' thing."

She looked at me with sad eyes before telling me that I tried to commit suicide.

"I know that Doc, I remember that part but not after."

"I was told that the gun was knocked out your hand and it went off when it fell."

"Oh." I mouthed as the door opened again.

"Mommy." I whined holding out my right good arm.

"Aw my baby girl."

Hugging her tightly I didn't wanna let her go.

"We'll give y'all some privacy." Said both doctors.

She held my face in her hands. "Jaycean Makhya Marie Alexander, how come you never told me about this."

I shook my head. "Ion know Ma. After leaving yo house I've been through so much and she just so happened to show up and I finally had a friend until she started to get aggressive and controlling. I just wanted her to stop talking to me, I had to find a away to make it all go away."

Tears sat on the rim of her eyes. Instead of saying anything she just held onto me.

The door opened yet again, damn I'm starting to think no one believed in knocking. Lifting up my head Carter stood there.

Immediately I put my head back down. Mama kissed my forehead.

"Baby I'm gonna go get your brother, sister and my love children, she said referring to the Squad, to go home and eat something, poor things been here since that night."