The Best Mistake I've Ever Made - Monsta X FF

Chapter 9: Forest Fire

YOUR POV

I had been so tired yesterday. Moving to my brothers, meeting new friends, going out, and another attack... It had exhausted me. I remember falling asleep in the car, and then when I woke up – I think less than an hour later – I was in my room and Jin was there. I asked him to stay, and he did. We slept in each other's arms. It was just like when we were kids... However that wasn't what I thought of when I woke up this morning...

The moment I open my eyes, I know something is wrong. I am covered in sweat and my heart is beating very fast. I instantly see what is happening; one of my morning attacks. I sit up wildly, accidentally hitting Jin in the process. He is immediately woken up. He sits up as well and quickly moves over my bed. He sits down in front of me and takes my hands. My eyes are clouded with tears, a few drops dripping on our intertwined hands. "Y/n, can you hear me?" I nod. "Are your pills on the window-sill or are they still in your bag?" "Bag." I whimper. Jin gets off my bed and a few moments later he holds up my pills. With trembling hands, I open the small container and take a few pills, swallowing the medication without water. I close the container and throw it away. The attack makes me sad and furious at the same time. I am so done with feeling this way, this happening to me... Jin notices. He stays silent, not knowing what to do. I move closer and lay my crossed legs in his lap, resting against his chest. He slowly wraps his arms around my back, nuzzling his nose in my hair.

When the attack seizes, I notice something wet is dripping on my head. I sit back and look at my brother. He is crying. "I'm sorry, y/n..." "Sorry, what are you sorry for? Hey..." I take his hand and rub circles on it. "I feel so weak when you have an attack! I never know what to do. You are in pain and sad and you need me but I don't know what-" "Jinnie, calm down. It's okay." "No, it's not okay! I am not a good-" "Don't you dare give me the 'I'm not a good brother'-crap, because I swear, I will kick you right in your crotch." We both grin at my fake warning. I brush some hairs out of his face. "I mean it, Jinnie. You are an amazing brother. I love you." He nods and hugs me again. I chuckle and wrap my arms around his waist. "Let's go eat something, you're too skinny." "Oh, don't start acting like Baekhyeon!"

YEON-JIN'S POV

Even though she told me it doesn't bother her, I still feel bad about this. I'm not strong. I can't safe her. I keep on thinking about this and don't notice that y/n put a plate on the counter. She walks over to the barstool I'm sitting on and sits down next to me. "Jinnie..." I turn my head. She looks... sad. The feelings come flooding back the second I notice a tear has formed in the corner of her eye. I start crying and look to the counter again. "Y/n, I'm sorry that I never know how to be serious when you're crying, or that I'm not there when you need me... I'm just afraid that what I'm saying or doing is wrong. I know how much you need me, and you are probably going to say something like 'I don't mind if you don't say or do the right thing' but y/n, I do. I care a lot about you and I don't want to make you feel bad or hurt you!" I start sobbing and my voice breaks. "I love you, I just can't... Do that. I am not... Byung-Ho... or Hyungwon." I notice her shifting when I say Hyungwon's name. I scoff. "There are plenty of people who would love to help you and are capable of doing that. But not me." "But I need YOU, Jin! I need my brother. And you're right, I don't care. Because I love you and you love me and that's what matters, not whether or not you are good at comforting me, because you already comfort me when you're there for me." I swallow and cry. I turn to her. Silently, I stand up, now right in front of her. I wrap her small body in my arms. I feel her sobbing against my chest, her tears falling on my skin. I make soft shushing sounds in her ear and give her head a kiss. "It's okay... it's okay..." She slowly calms down. I am still holding her, the both of us just enjoying the moment.

"Good morning- oh. Are you alright, y/n?" And of course, Jooheon has come downstairs. She breaks from my hug and turns to him, her face stained with tears. "Yes, yes don't worry." Jooheon's face is crimson red. She looks down and notices she's still wearing only her shorts and her bralette top. I look down and notice I'm still only wearing my sweatpants. Jooheon laughs and walks towards us. "Don't worry." He takes off his shirt and gives it to y/n. "The others are coming down as well, you should put on something. We are all in our sleepwear but you..." He chuckles. "Jooheon, stop, please." She laughs softly and puts on the shirt. It's way too big, but Jooheon and I agree she at least looks a bit presentable now. The room is soon filled with all the others. Y/n are the only ones who have already had breakfast, so we just drink our coffees and mumble good-morning's to everyone. Both of our faces show no signs of what happened earlier this morning, and I am happy. If we tell everyone, she will be put under a lot of stress again with all of them jumping at her with questions and hugs. This also makes me a bit proud. I know what's good for her and I know now that it's okay for me to be a goofball around her or clumsy. It will be alright.

YOUR POV

I put down my mug after taking the last sip of my coffee. "What are our plans for today, I can bear that in mind when choosing my outfit for today. Your shirt is comfortable Jooheon, but I really want my own clothes." I tug at the front of the shirt. "It's a little too big for me." Chang-Min almost chokes on his food when he starts laughing. I glare at him. "Don't turn that into a sex thing, Minnie, gosh." I shake my head and laugh. "Well, when you and Jin were already sleeping, we kind of decided to go to the park today, if that's okay with you." Baekhyeon says. I quickly turn to him, almost snapping my neck in the process. "You mean that nature park? The one with the forest and lake and-" My brother laughs and pats my head. "Yes, the one mom and dad always took us to." I clap happily and jump up from the stool. "I'll be back in a bit!" I run upstairs, already thinking of possible outfits for today, smiling widely.