The Best Mistake I've Ever Made - Monsta X FF

Chapter 16: On Purpose

Trigger warning: mentions of actions that take place when grown-ups love each other (if you know what I mean). If you feel comfortable reading this; go on. If you don't; I'm not going to deep into the topic, don't worry ;). If you don't feel comfortable even thinking about it because you still have an innocent mind (unlike the rest of us) don't hesitate to scroll to the next chapter. Have fun reading (that sounds wrong in this context but whatever).

WONHO'S POV

"She was gasping for air... This one was really bad, Wonho!" Chang-Min keeps on talking, pacing up and down his room. He has been like this for at least fifteen minutes now since dinner ended and he dragged me to his room. I am sitting on his bed, resting my chin in my hand as I watch the scene go down. The whole time I've silently watched him murmur and panic about everything, not knowing exactly what to say to him.

I think I spaced out for a little while, because I didn't notice Chang-Min suddenly stop talking. He stopped in the middle of the room, staring into nothingness as his eyes were widened in shock. "Min? Are you okay?" Slowly he shook his head, rapidly speeding up as tears started to form in his eyes. I quickly stood up and stepped over to him, putting my hands first on his shoulders, then on his neck and jaw. "Look at me, Min." His eyes traveled towards mine and I saw nothing but fear. His mouth opened and closed, as if he was trying to find words to say but couldn't talk. I cocked my head a bit to the side, smiling faintly.

That's when he spoke up. A croaky voice filling the empty bedroom, light shining through the curtains only when a car passes (since it was already late), but now it was pitch-black. "Wonho... I am a bad brother, right? Every single time I try to help her but I don't succeed. She needs someone stronger than me, like Byung-Ho or Baekhyeon, but they're not always there, so I should be but I c-" "Min, calm down, you're rambling again, breathe, please..." "Omg, what if she hates me?" Another car passes and a ray of light passes through the room, falling on his beautiful face that is stained with tears. "She doesn't hate you, Min, don't say such a thing. She couldn't hate you, look at you!" I take a step closer and caress his cheek with my thumb. "You're perfect" I whisper. His eyes widen a bit, but soften once he finds his confidence back. He takes a step closer as well, our faces now only inches apart as we start to lean in.

It is dark again, the light we forgot to turn on now being my best friend as it makes this whole situation a lot more... romantic. His forehead crashes against mine in the dark, a faint grunt released from his mouth due to the impact. We are about the same size, which makes it perfect for us to stare into each other's eyes deeply.

I think about every little thing about him that I love. How it all started a few years ago, right before our debut, when we first met the brothers. His smile was as bright as the sun that day, instantly making me crushing on him. Whenever he told us another one of his pick-up lines I would laugh the hardest, because I wanted him to notice me. But these few days together were enough for all of us to find out our true feelings to one another, whether those were about friendship, family... or love. I love him. And I know he loves me back. We both do. We don't need to say that. Even though I wish he would.

It is silent until I hear a car coming down the street. I wait until the light shines through the curtains again, starting on the wall behind me and then quickly going to the wall behind him. This is my chance. And I am taking it.

AUTHOR POV

The air between the two males is harshly pushed away as Wonho slams his lips on his lover's lips. He is holding his face with both hands, shoulders risen as a result of nerves and adrenaline rushing through his body as they make contact.

Chang-Min feels as if his lips are on fire. He knew what would happen, but he also didn't. He inhales loud enough for anyone listening outside the door to hear and raises his hands to hold Wonho's face, trying to bring him as close as possible.