The Best Mistake I've Ever Made - Monsta X FF

Chapter 15: Unsteady

Only a few more chapters! I can't wait until I can finally give you guys some real romance to gush over, but I promise it will come verrrrryyy soon...

AUTHOR POV

Baekhyeon is sobbing now, his voice cracking at every sentence of the horrible story he is telling. He feels safe in Jooheon's presence, knowing that it is alright for him to talk about his feelings, even when he feels overwhelmed by memories that are still so clear to him. The other boy is comforting his friend, small tears threatening to escape his eyes. It was only when Baekhyeon finished, that his silent sniffles are heard. He looks up, startled by the sad sounds that come out of Jooheon's body. With wide eyes, he checks the other's face. "It's okay, I'm okay... I'm just... I'm so sorry about what you went through." Baekhyeon's eyes are red, his cheeks still wet and the bed has small spots of his salt tears on it. The scene is rather comforting, knowing that the oldest brother finally blowed off some steam and shared his feelings for once. On the other hand, he is a wreck. He looks horrible. He never cries, not even when you have a panic attack.

A few more comforting words are spoken until Jooheon decides they need to go downstairs to eat dinner. The two are welcomed by the smell of Kimchi filling their nostrils, making their empty stomachs rumble. Jooheon immediately rushes (no pun intended) to his friends, who are not a bit surprised that he begins doing aegyo in the hope of getting to taste something in advance. Kihyun keeps on hitting the back of his head, scolding him for not being a able to be a little more patient.

You are staring at your brother from the couch. Jin had pulled you aside because he wanted to talk to you about your brother's behaviour, who now decided to join the party. Baekhyeon walks up to you, clearing his throat silently and swallowing hard, trying to get rid of his nerves.

BAEKHYEON'S POV

"Y/n... Can I talk to you for a moment?" She nods slowly, barely visibly as she stands up and walks ahead of me, to the hallway. I follow her, scared of what she'll say. She leans against the wall, and I lean against the wall opposite of hers. A few seconds pass before I finally dare to open my mouth. "Look, I am really sorry about the way I acted today, it was wrong. I have been a total dick to everyone, but especially to you. I kept on nagging and..." I sigh loudly. Then I take a step closer to the petite figure standing in front of me, lifting her chin up. "I love you, y/n. You're my sister. I sometimes get too protective, and I know that that bothers you-" "A lot." Her voice is hoarse, implying her sadness that is almost overtaking her. She is trying her hardest not to cry, but tears are now making their way down her rosy cheeks, and I can't help but cry again, too. "I know." "I'm mad at you." "I know." "You will do it again." "I k-" "If you know you will, why don't you do something about it? You keep telling others what they need to do, how they should behave, while you clearly can't behave yourself. Why don't you fucking change before you go and scold others? You make me sick. And it's all my fault!" "What are you talking about?" "It's all my fault, Baeki! I ruin stuff. I thought, that I finally had friends, fuck, I thought I would be normal now that people other than my family liked me and even someone like-like me! But I am so fucking scared of everything! And you're only making it worse with your stupid... ARGGGHH" Her voice is rising by every word that comes of her lips, but it is still hoarse. She screams in frustration. I know what is coming. And I loathe it.

It starts with hiccup-like sobs. Her shoulders tremble as she gasps for air with every cry that she releases. I want to hold her. So I take a step forward, but that only makes her step back. Her back against the wall, she slides down. Her knees are shaking, her whole body is shaking. And I can't do anything, because she is mad at me. She never cries hard. Today is a day of firsts, I guess, because she is wailing now. Byung-Ho comes running to the hallway, stopping for a second in the opening as he tries to locate the sounds of our sister. When he sees her, he speeds to her, waving me of to get her medication, so I do. Her cries fill the entire house. Everyone in the kitchen is shocked by her sudden panic attack. I walk to the cabinet, grab her pills and give them to Chang-Min and Wonho, who speed to the hallway. Jooheon puts a comforting hand on my shoulder. "It's not your fault." "It is." He is silent. He knows I'm right. Everyone does.

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Sorry for the short chapter, but I will make it up to you guys by posting another one in a short time! Love you. <3