The Best Mistake I've Ever Made - Monsta X FF

Chapter 12: Can't Help Falling In Love

AUTHOR POV

Hyungwon drags you into the forest, your fingers interlaced while the warm summer sun hits your exposed arms through the pack of trees surrounding the two of you. If this meeting wasn't this serious, the whole scene could be described as quite romantic. Eventually, Hyungwon stops walking and turns around, an unreadable expression spread across his face. Is it fear? Sadness? Anxiety? Grieve? You look down to your feet, the two pairs of white sneakers, now slightly covered in sand and dust. Still not looking at him, you start the conversation, breaking the awkward silence between the two of you. "So, Hyungwon... Why did you want to talk?" When he stays silent for too long, you look up, to find him staring directly into your soul, tears welling in his eyes. "I am so sorry... I was a douchebag yesterday... I shouldn't have acted the way I did." "Why did you?" More silence. Only the sounds of owls and other birds are heard, maybe even faint laughter of the others in the distance. Finally, he answers, as truthfully as possible. "I was jealous." "Excuse me?" "I know, I must sound like a total dick-" "Yes, yes you do." Your blood is coiling in your veins. "How dare you, just... claiming me! I am not yours, Hyungwon!" You turn around to walk away, but Hyungwon pulls you back vigorously, causing you to fall and stumble into him. One of his hands is around your waist, the other holding the hand he pulled back. As you stand up a little, his hand moves from your waist to your cheek, brushing hair out of your face. "I wish you were, though." The words come out in a whisper, still loud enough for you to hear. Your eyes become slightly bigger, staring into his. Even though you already forgave him, thinking that everyone could have a bad day, the same feelings you had yesterday come back when he confesses he was jealous. Suddenly you begin thinking. What if he isn't the douche I think he is, the boy who claimed you, but instead the boy who loves you and wants you to be his? You immediately want to erase the thought; he could never love you, want you... He's an idol. Sooner or later, he will go back to his life of busy schedules, practices and performances, comebacks, albums, tours. There is no space for a girlfriends. Plus, no one could ever know. When he publically announces you're a couple, fans would probably bombard you with hate, or worse, say it right in your face. Trending hashtags, like #Hyungwondeservesbetter, #Y/nshouldfuckoff... You couldn't do that. Not to yourself, but especially not to him. "I don't want to be your burden, Hyungwon. You should just-" "Leave you alone? I'm sorry, y/n, but I tried that for the past 48 hours and I didn't succeed. I know we just met, but it feels like I've known you my whole life. You're so kind, and honest, and funny, and sweet, and I-" You start sobbing as he says those words. "Stop it, don't say it. I can't hear it. We shouldn't be together! We shouldn't... I'm sorry, but I'm afraid I can't be that person for you. I can't be yours." If you were standing against a wall, Hyungwon for sure would have hit it now. Instead, you're standing in a forest, his hand holding your face, catching your tears, the both of you standing on a pile of leaves on the forest floor. "Shh... Don't cry." His hand moves again, now holding your back as he pulls you closer. You sob into his chest, letting all the emotions out you have been holding back for the past two days. "I know. I feel the same. I'm sorry, I just... I can't imagine how busy your life must be as an idol, having a girlfriend would probably only make it worse." "Don't you want to be mine? Don't you want to have cute dates, cuddles, kisses on your head, someone there when you have to talk to someone other than your family?" You stay silent for a while. He has a point. Even though the two of you know how wrong it is to do this, you can't stay away from each other. No matter how hard you push each other away, you keep coming back.

He holds you for a little while, the feeling of your small and fragile body in his arms makes him realize even more how much he cares about you. He wants to protect you, be there for you. He steps back, softly caressing your cheek, wiping away some tears. "Hyungwon?" "Hmm?" "Why didn't you ever let go of my hand." He stops wiping, stops looking at your beautiful face, but now looks down. Your hands are still intertwined, a bit moist from your sweat and the long physical contact, but he doesn't care. He doesn't want you to let go to wipe away the humidity, he wants you to hold his hand forever, so he can hold yours. He chuckles at the sight of your cute little frown, trying to spot some sort of reaction on his face. "Well, does it bother you?" "No." He smiles and comes closer. Your eyes turn big and your cheeks turn red. He is blushing, too, but he is a little more confident. His lips come closer to your skin and he kisses your cheek. Then he kisses your nose. The feeling of his plump lips softly moving over your skin is heavenly, his touch numbing you. He kisses your head the longest, holding you by your back again as his lips touch your forehead. When he pulls back, you can't help but smile. He smiles at the sight of you smiling, contemplating how such a cute and beautiful girl could ever like him. You never said it explicitly, but the two of you know your feelings for one another. Still, you're too scared to say it out loud, knowing what lies ahead if you do. He lifts up your hands and places a peck on your palm, looking deeply into your eyes. "Shall we go back, y/n?" You nod, and the two of you silently walk back, hand in hand. You arrive at the field, but no one is there. Suddenly you hear Jin screaming. "OMG, THEY'RE HOLDING HANDS!!!" You hear something, or rather someone, falling into water, so you turn around. Everyone is looking at you, even Jin, who just reached the surface again. All of them are in their swimming clothes, standing somewhere in or around the lake. Shownu and Baekhyeon raise their hands, waving at you to come over, so you do. Minhyuk and I.M stare at your hand holding Hyungwon's, and know that the 'competition' is won. Even though you and Hyungwon still haven't made a move, everyone knows you guys are endgame, even though you're still scared to admit it.

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Lol I just realized that they've only known each other for two days, but even then; this is just some fanfiction, so anything can happen. Thank you for 150 reads, also a big shoutout to my newest readers! Thank you so much for reading this, it really makes me so happy. Love y'all! xx