The Best Mistake I've Ever Made - Monsta X FF

Chapter 18: I Will Be There

YOUR POV

I don't bother the cold water hitting my cheeks, I only run. I don't know for how long, but I'm blinded by the tears in my eyes as I think of everything. How I just fought with my brother, who I now need more than ever. How I am so afraid of loving Hyungwon when I know damn well that he might not be able to love me back. How the hell could he say he wants me when he has everything? He has an amazing life, I don't want to bother him, like I bother my family. I feel like such a burden.

A car honks and someone opens their window to shout something at me, but I just keep on running, until my legs feel weak and I run in a small alley that is covered with a make-shift roof of some big plates, only having a few small cracks that let through raindrops. I sit against the wall, crying in my hands. Thunder rumbles, but it's unable to drown down the sounds of my own thoughts that are breaking me down piece by piece.

HYUNGWON'S POV

To my great surprise, Baekhyeon didn't get any hits from one of his brothers. We all know he was sorry and that y/n wasn't crying only because of him. It is also my fault. I should be there for her, now that she needs me, so I offered to help look for her. She isn't picking up her phone, so I guess she is either still running or she is just not hearing it.

Chang-Min and Wonho went out together, trying to find her in the neighborhood while I get in the car and drive to the city. I hope she's safe. I need her to be. Please, be safe, y/n.

YOUR POV

It seems the clouds are as sad as me, because it won't stop raining, trapping me in the small alley, all by myself. I'm not mad at Baekhyeon anymore, and I know he knows, but I am stuck in my own mind. I am furious at myself, for never being able to just be normal for once. I'm always the one people need to look out for, I am too much for them. My sobs grown louder, so I don't hear the car stop and the door slamming shut.

HYUNGWON'S POV

I found her. Omg. I found her.

I quickly run towards her. "Omg, y/n, there you are, I was looking everywhere for y-" I stop as soon as I see her still sobbing, she's lost in her own thoughts again, I think she's having an attack. I dug in my pockets, finding the small container I was looking for. I open it and quickly grab a bottle of water from the car, before running back and giving her the pills, more like forcing it into her since she's not really here.

She trembles, slowly calming down as her sub consciousness realizes she's not alone anymore, and she looks up at me. Even though her face is puffy from crying, she's still so beautiful. I grab her hand and pull her up, a bit too hard so she falls against my chest and I can hug her.

I want her to stay here forever, so I can protect her and hold her and love her...

YOUR POV

He holds me together. I guess I never realized that I love him, even when we only met a few days ago, he is such an important person to me already. I feel like I am just whole when I'm with him.

We hug silently for a few more minutes, before he pulls away and brushes my hair out of my face. "Y/n, I need to tell you something." I stare up at him, into his beautiful dark eyes. "Yes?" I softly say. He smiles softly before telling me the words I never thought I would hear.

"I love you."

It is silent. The rain clatters on the plates above us, but I don't bother. He loves me.

"Ever since we met, I felt something. You might think that you will be a burden to me, since I am an idol and stuff, but I already fell for you, hard. I love you, y/n. And I will never leave you. I will always be there for you, to pick you up when you fall and cuddle with you when you need me or just want some love. I will give you kisses and occasionally gifts, and I will hold your hand if you need me to."

"What about your fans?" "They will love you as much as I do, as soon as you're ready for this to come out." "This?" "Yeah, us, I mean, after what we told each other at the park the other day..." I shake my head. "You can't do that to yourself, Hyungwon. You have a busy life, me being a part of that will only make it harder for you, please just..." "What are you trying to say, y/n?" His tone is stern, tears hiding behind his eyes, he's probably trying his hardest to keep them down.

"Falling in love with me is a mistake." The tears in my eyes burn and I can't hold them down anymore. I let my cheeks become wet once again.

"You are not the one to say that!" He sighs and comes closer. His face is just a few inches apart from mine and he cups my face. His voice is low and breaks. "Well, if it is a mistake, it is the best one I've ever made." The distance between our faces disappears when he locks lips with me.

I swear I am seeing fireworks, even though my eyes are closed. His fingers slowly brush circles on my skin as his lips move with mine. His kiss is gentle, soft, passionate, loving... I back away slightly, just with my head, so I can look at him when I say "I love you too."

"OMG, YES!!! You go sis!" Hyungwon and I look to the side, laughing at the sight of Chang-Min jumping up and down in the rain, with Wonho clinged onto him, who is trying his hardest to keep him down. I giggle softly. Hyungwon presses a kiss on my head, before making me jump on his back. He walks us to the car, and we all get in.

"Don't ever run away, you stupid. I thought you would drift away in the rain." "Why is that?" "Because you're sugary sweet." I hit Chang-Min's arm, then turning back to Hyungwon, who is driving us home.

Home.