Broken Wings

Dreaded

Being alone for 8 hours honestly was terrifying for me, even if I didn't want to admit it. Even if I wanted to prove Ben wrong that I could take care of myself.

I sit up in my bed, knowing that I hardly got any sleep at all, because I was too afraid of what would happen if I DID fall asleep.

I place my head on my hand as I rested it on my knees, too tired to explain.

I eventually get up and dragged myself to the dresser, and opened it to try to figure out what the heck I should wear today.

I mean, I could just stay in my pajamas, what's the point in changing if I'm not going anywhere?

I decided to fuck it, and I left my pajamas on for the day as I opened the door to hear coffee brewing.

I walked past Rhiannon who was getting the coffee into cups, and I sat down on the couch, almost ready to doze off again.

"Ben! Get up! Coffee's ready!" Rhiannon opened her bedroom door and walked in.

"Thank you Rhiannon." I hear a the tired voice of Ben's that I recognized so easily.

I looked around the room again, trying my best not to doze off. I have nothing to do for the entire day.

Exept for sleep that I couldnt receive unless I wanted to face my ultimate fear, which will most definitely not happen.

Rhiannon comes back out to grab her own cup of coffee and she sat down next to me.

"If you want coffee there's some more still in the coffee pot." Rhiannon suggested, and I shook my head.

"Im good, thank you."

Rhiannon smiles and nods.

Ben eventually drags himself into the living room with his beloved coffee.

Ben looks at me but then quickly looks away, like he was still mad at me.

I sigh, but he sits next to me.

"So, uh" I try to create conversation with anyone, since I wanted to enjoy the company while it lasted.

Ben turns his head back at me normally again, almost seeming to inspect me.

After a few moment of confusion he said, "Lara, did you get any sleep last night?"

I groan at him, and his expression towards me seemed to change almost instantly, like he was concerned, even though he wanted to be mad at me.

He awkwardly looked back down at his coffee, and I rubbed my eyes that burned like fire.

My eyes seemed to want to drag the eyelids down, but I couldn't let them, or else I might go back..

But before I knew it people were rushing to get their things and I was about to be left alone with the angels in five minutes.

Ben looked like he wanted to say or do something really bad, like he might burst, but he didn't do it, or whatever that thing was.

Before I could say goodbye to Rhiannon she was out the door, and Ben was getting his jacket on at the end of the doorway.

I walk over to him to give him a hug goodbye, even though I knew he was still mad at me.

Ben gladly took it immediately and hugged me so tight I wondered if there was a possibility if I could pop like a balloon.

He exhales sharply into my hair as his tall form towers over me as I wrap my arms around him.

For a few moments it was just complete silence.

"Just please don't hurt yourself." Ben mumbles.

I nod.

"And please don't let anything happen.."

I look up at him, "I can do this."

He sighs as he let's go of me and looks at me one last time before he shut the door.

I heard his heavy footsteps fade off, and I lean against the door and slide down to the floor.

Even though I knew I couldn't do this, I said I could.

I guess that's what you get for being stubborn, right?