Broken Wings

Explained

Ben and I came out of my bedroom and went in the living room to see everyone, and everyone stared at me, all with the same face. They looked shocked.

"Hey, guys" I said nervously, breaking the silence.

"Are you alright??"

"What the hell happened in there???"

I laughed a little as I sat down, and Ben just continued to stand up.

"I'm fine, now. I will be for a while. I just need time to think about things."

Everyone was silent again, Shaun nodded, slightly in relief.

"But why did that happen? I'm still So confused." Keith said, repositioning on the floor.

I hesitated, but I knew I had to say something to them. They were people I could trust. They were going to be close friends, too.

I looked at Ben, and he smiled and nodded in encouragement.

"Well," I took a deep breath.

"I'm not a normal human. Not one that you guys would expect, at least." I leaned back, getting comfortable.

I chose to blurt it all out at once.

"I have two souls. One is a normal soul, and the other is a horrible soul that holds a hell inside of it. It terrorizes me, and pulls me in when I'm asleep, or during these attacks. Basically at the least times you'd expect it."

"The reason why I look normal is because I still have a tiny bit of the other normal soul left inside of me; but it's slowly receding. Once this horrible soul takes over, I will become something too horrible to even imagine."

"Something that everyone would fear.. Something with black eyes and a heart as cold and dead as stone.." I cough back tears. It was slowly making me realize how close I was to becoming exactly what I just described.

"I don't even want to imagine it.." I said, and my eyes start to water.

Ben came around to sit next to me, and he puts an arm around me and rubs my shoulder.

"And we are trying to avoid exactly THAT from happening. It won't happen." Ben said out loud.

I could feel the heat in the room. I knew everyone was shocked.

"Exuse me.." Jason quietly asks.

"Are you sure? How do you know all of this?"

Ben let go of me, and looked at me with sympathetic eyes.

I wiped the tears off of my face with the sleeve of my hoodie.

"When I was born, I was born with one eye completely blacked out. It eventually faded away by the time I met Ben in highschool, but I kept it hidden ever since."

"I went to a very religious school during middle school and elementary. I had one teacher who specialized in the devil and demons and all that crap. He would pull me out of class and tell me every thing slowly so I could know about what I was, and he explained EVERYTHING to me. So far, every thing he told me was right, so I'm going exactly by his words."

Jason nodded slowly, understanding.

"I kept close to the teacher forever, and once I finally chose to tell Ben; which was a LONG process, I brought Ben to him, and he taught Ben everything, too."

Ben nodded a little.

"He told me that I had a rare soul that is supposed to protect something very important. He kept on telling me that he sensed that I was exactly where I needed to be, and that I found what my soul was made to protect."

"I'm agreeing more and more with those words everyday. But Lara doesn't even want any help! She's really stubborn." He looked at me and laughed, and I rolled my eyes.

"But I really do believe that his words were true." Ben said, "I've been having weird senses when she's in her attacks and stuff, as long as I can remember! It's so weird."

I felt like it was good for both me AND him to get this out to some one like this. It kinda felt good to just blurt out a secret that I've been hiding from so many people for so many years.

"That's so weird.. It's kinda hard to absorb all of that at once." Aaron said, then puffing up his cheeks.

"Aaron just explained what we were all thinking." Shaun said, and we all laughed.

"So do you still talk to this teacher?" Keith said, completely in focus.

"Not really. We can contact him if we absolutely needed to, but it would take some effort to find him again," I said, sitting up again, "I mean, we haven't seen him in about 10 years" I laughed a little.

Ben stood up again.

"And since one of those attacks just happened, she'll need a ton of rest to get over it."

"Oh, shit! I guess we gotta go, then" Aaron jumped up, grabbing the car keys out of his back pocket.

"Thank you guys for coming. We really appreciate it." I said. It felt weird, since it was now at the point that we had to kick them out.

"It was good seeing you two again," Keith said, and Ben shook his hand, "It's awesome seeing Lara here and there."

I laughed, and also stood up.

"Do you need help getting stuff out? Id be glad to help"

"Nah, I think we're good. Go to sleep!" Jason said, grabbing a guitar case, waving me back to the couch.

"Oh, whatever" I smiled, and he smiled back as he walked out the door.

Everyone eventually got out, and we watched as the car left down the road from the window.

"Good job, Lara. I'm proud." Ben looked at me and smiled, and I hugged him again.

"We got about two hours until Rhiannon comes home, but she said she'd be late tonight." He said, frowning into my head.

"You shouldn't be sad. It's just a little thing that happens all the time. Especially if you have a job." I smiled up at him, then letting go to grab a pillow and blanket from my room. If I was going to get comfy, it better be as comfortable as I could.

"After all, how would I know?? I've never really had a job!!" I laugh, and he laughs back at me, sitting down.

"Oh, shut up" He laughed nudging me as he sat down on the couch, grabbing the remote.

"Wanna watch a movie on Netflix? I'll let you choose."

"Sure" I smiled, snuggling into the pillow and leaning against the side of the couch, rolling up into a ball.

I know I keep on denying that he's my guardian, it just feels weird the more you think about it a certain way.

But if I think deeper, I know that deep inside of me, I truly believe he is.

I trust him with every part of me.  I have for years.

I look over at him, and smiled at him.

He looked over at me, and smirked a little.

"What?"

I kept smiling. "Nothin."

He smiled as he looked back at the television.

"I promise that things will get better. I promise with all of my heart." He said, setting down the remote as the movie started to load onto the screen, kicking his feet under the blanket too.

"I'm so glad I know you, Ben." I smile at him, and he laughs back.

"Me too."

"Now why don't we watch some Star Wars?"

"We better be starting on the first one. Ive never really seen the whole thing."

"What??!" He said, and his jaw dropped. I laughed.

"I'm sorry!"

"You don't have to be" He laughed, "I'll get you obsessed so we can go crazy about it together." He smiled wide as the movie started.