Beer and Spicy Rice Cakes

Chapter 11 - Sober

I woke up the next morning. And again, didn't have any idea how I got home.

But there was a significant difference from last time:

I wasn't alone.

Jimin was sleeping next to me, with her face turned to the wall.

Plus, I only felt pain in my head, but that probably didn't come from any kind of injury.

I slowly turned into a side-sleeping position and carefully curled a single strand of the pink hair around my finger, as she finally rolled around and straight onto my stretched out arm.

My eyes widened slightly and for a moment I didn't know, how to react.

Until I decided to not give a shit about it.

She has already been next to me after all, right?

Would've probably had a reason to it.

I put the other arm around her and pulled her closer to me, softly stroking her head with my hand and burying my face in her hair.

And like that, I fell asleep again. 

When she started moving and her breathing got normal, I woke up again, just to see her looking up.

I still didn't know what happened last night, I just knew, that I suddenly felt much closer to her.

So whatever happened, it probably wasn't a bad thing.

Our eyes were locked at each other and I softly caressed her cheek with my thumb, before putting my chin on her head and pulling her closer again.

I really didn't want this moment to end.

I felt like crap and having her close to me felt like I could withstand any pain in the world. 

"Morning..."

Her quiet, husky voice gave me goose bumps.

The warm, good kind of goose bumps that shook my heart and instantly shut down any of my thoughts. 

"Had a good rest..?"

"How couldn't I? You were so warm, I didn't even really need a blanket."

My lips formed a smile and my hand automatically buried itself in her hair. 

"How did we get here..?"

"We took the bus.. don't remember?"

"Not really.."

"How come, you always lose your memories when something happens between us?"

And with that question, I was wide awake.

I widened my eyes and looked down to her.

Some questions started buzzing around inside of my head and I couldn't think straight anymore. 

"Did we..?"

"We didn't."

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes again.

Anything else was completely okay with me.

But I wouldn't have forgiven myself, if I really tried sleeping with her while we were so high that I couldn't even remember it in the morning.

"But I tried kissing you.."

I raised one eyebrow and slightly looked down at her face again.

What was all that about? 

"You.. tried? "

"I tried. But you rejected me.. And got kinda pissed."

"I got pissed? why would I?"

"I asked you the same question. You mumbled something I didn't understand and fell asleep after that. I was kinda worried, I misunderstood you somewhere.."

"About what..?"

"Well.. About you liking me in a somehow different way than just friendship.."

I started smiling.

All that really sounded like me.

Even if I was a dickhead, asshole and jerk from time to time, had a really bad temper and a trash-mouth.

I wasn't the one to do whatever I wanted when I was trippin' or drunk.

Probably because I didn't want to have those kinds of experiences, when I wasn't completely in my right state of mind.

And while I didn't even expect it, the atmosphere started to change.

My heart pounded with the thought of kissing her for real.

Everything around us was fading away, as I softly put both of my hands down her cheeks and pulled her face a little bit closer to mine.

Her gaze locked my eyes in immediately and I gave her a gentle smile.

Her lips got closer and closer.

"Sorry... For rejecting you...", I quietly mumbled against them.

It felt like the entire world stood still around us.

Every single inch we were apart was a pain in the ass for me.

And after a few seconds I couldn't handle it anymore.

I closed the gap between our lips with a soft kiss and gently buried one of my hands in her colorful hair.

My mind went totally blank.

In that moment there didn't exist anything else but her.

And after a whole lot of time, after remembering that I still was a human being and had to breathe, I softly pulled on her lower lip with my teeth and eventually let go of it.

I still felt her warm, unsteady breath on my lips.

She was still that close to me.

And her lips were still softly touching mine, like they were begging for more.

"Don't you dare to think that I don't like you in that way... Because that thing just now... Felt like the very first thing in my life, I didn't completely mess up...", I quietly whispered against them in a soft, husky voice  and carefully placed another warm and more intimate kiss on them.

And this time, I didn't hesitate for one second.

My hand found its way to her cheek again and I could feel her lips opening up a little, before I softly poked her tongue with my own.

I didn't want to let go of her anymore.

It felt right.

And I really wanted to do the right thing for once.

As many mistakes as I made in the past eleven years, because the right thing was too exhausting or too boring, this one right way actually felt too good to be true.

I enjoyed it. With everything I had.

I knew it wasn't much, but I wanted to give it to her.

Every little thing of it.