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chapter 21: i've had enough

I woke up with my eyes swollen and tears stained my cheeks while my head hurts and i was hugging a pillow and my blanket was on top of me. I realized that i cried myself to sleep last night, aish. I've had enough. I can't believe how mean people could be in the internet. I felt so down and my self esteem sank. I didn't know what to do and who to talk to. I tried to sleep again but i couldn't. What do i do?! I remembered that we actually will be performing tonight on mnet and we have to practice. I woke up at 3:48 am so i'm fine. But i don't feel like practicing though.

*knock* *knock*

"wae?" i asked rubbing my temple. "yeri-ssi, its me, hyori unnie. May i come in?" unnie said. "sure" i replied quickly. I tried to fix myself to hide the fact that i flooded my room with tears last night. "aigoo! What happened to you?!" she said with a worried face as she examined my face. Shit. I look away. "n-nothing, unnie. I'm fine." i deny. She held my face and gently moved it towards her direction. Her eyes widen. "did you cry last night?" she asked concerned. "ani, i didn't cry." i said, lying. "stop lying kid." i gave up and sighed heavily. I told her everything and started crying gallons again. I clung myself onto her as she comforted me, patting my head. "shh~ don't cry, you shouldn't mind what they are saying! They are just jealous of you, you are beautiful. Always remember that. Please stop crying." she said. I sniffed. "i d-don't know, unnie. I just feel like they hate me so much and i feel so ugly and stupid!" i said letting everything out.

"that's it, i have to do something about this." she said as she gently let go of me and left my room. She looked like an angry mother. I felt alarmed. What will she do? I sigh and just fix myself. I combed my hair and tied it into a messy bun, just like my life. Messy. I went outside my room ready to go and practice. They were all the living room and they looked at me. I gave a weak smile.

"good morning unnies." i said trying my best to sound happy and cheerful. "good morning maknae. kaja?" i nodded my head and they stood up. We went outside the building and rode the van. We practiced and practiced. We all fell down the floor panting.

*ding*
I checked my phone.

junhui💫:

jagi, are you okay? I saw the eclipse members' vlive and i felt really bad for you. Don't listen to the haters and do what you love okay? I love you so much. Good luck later on mnet.

What vlive??

To: junhui💫

What vlive jagi? Thank you and i love you. Goodluck too.

junhui💫

you don't know? The members did a vlive adressing your issue and said that you were really hurt and that you were crying so much last night. Please feel better and after mnet later, we will go out to make you feel good again, arasseo?

To: junhui💫

okay. Thank you so much. I love you.

I lock my phone and went inside the van. We were going to the mnet venue to get our hair and makeup done, and our costumes too. Even though i still felt bad, i cheered myself up and just thought about moonlights. They cheer me up always and love me genuinely.

"guys, we're here!" i heard bea unnie shout but not too loud, just enough for all of us to hear. We all said yes in unison and immediately got out the van. We all went to our assigned rooms and sat down on the chairs. They did our hair and makeup, and showed us our outfits for the performance. I liked my outfit.

I felt pretty confident so i decided to take a picture. I hope jun approves this kind of outfit. Besides, i rarely even show any skin. When the stylist noona was done curling my hair and applying blood red lipstick, she let me go. I walked out the room and decided to just roam around for a bit. But suddenly..... *bump*! Ow. Oh wait, is that really him?! "j-jimin sunbaenim?" i asked. He also looked at me shocked. "o-oh! Yeri?! What are you doing here?" he asked. "well, our group, eclipse is actually going to perform tonight. I guess bts will also perform?" i asked him even though the question was so stupid. Duh. He nodded his head. "ahhh, kurae. Well, i wish eclipse good luck later!" he said showing his eyesmile. How cute. I bow. "kamsahamnida! You guys too." i said genuinely. He bowed slightly then continued walking. I tried figuring out what just happened and just decided to walk around more.

"yeri what are you doing here?" someone suddenly asked out of the blue. I scream in surprise as the person just covered my mouth. "yah, relax. It's just me, minghao. Scaredy cat." he chuckled then finally let me go. "omo! I think you should change...." he said tsk-ing while looking at me up and down and shaking his head. "wae? Does it really look that bad? I knew it. Ughhh. I should have followed my diet. And skirts really aren't my thing. Ughh okay i'll go-" he cut me off.

"no, no. You look beautiful in that. But it's just a little revealing...... For jun hyung. You know, if i saw my girl like that going on stage dancing with a thousands of guys surrounding her, i would also feel conscious and alert for her, of course i don't want her to get disrespected or harassed in any way." well, he is right. "i understand you hao, but i can't do anything about it now. The stylist chose this. I'm sure jun will understand"

"CHOI YERI GO CHANGE RIGHT NOW OR I WILL BE THE ONE TO TAKE YOUR CLOTHES OFF AND PUT YOU IN ONE OF MY SWEATERS." jun demanded. He is so overreacting. I roll my eyes out of frustration. How could he be this protective if i'm not even showing THAT much skin?! We have been arguing for the past 13 minutes when minghao told on me and jun immediately came to me. Now, we're alone at this weird room and he started scolding me. Blah blah blah. He is too much

"yah! What do you want me to wear huh? A freaking large sweater and sweatpants?! Of course i will be performing and the stylist chose this outfit! I can't do anything about it, we can't do anything about it! So whether you approve me or not to wear this, i will." i said rushing out the door and banging the door closed. My steps were heavy as tears were falling down. Am i really that ugly? Are what they say about me true? Maybe he just thinks i'm ugly so he didn't let me wear the outfit. He just thinks i'm disgusting and worthless and stupid! I messed my hair up in confusion and i fell down because i felt so tired and done. I just wanted to disappear. To vanish from this cruel, toxic world.

I was letting everything out and was sobbing that filled the whole entire hallway. I didn't care if my makeup was all over my face, if my hair was all messed up. I just cried and cried. "she probably had too much plastic surgery that's why she looks so fcked up"  "she is too ugly to be with jun oppa" "she can die and i can live peacefully" "she looks fat and gross" "she's a sl*t. She targeted joshua oppa first, now jun oppa? Who's next? The8 oppa?!"

All the disgusting words passed my head. I cried even more. "yeri? Yeri! What happened to you?!" someone exclaimed. I didn't bother to look at the person and just told them to go away. But they didn't go. "aniyo, i will never leave you. Even if you hurt me." i got hit by his words. I look up to see

Joshua.

Oh sht! Awww, i feel bad for yeri. It's sad because this also happens in real life. I hope people will stop bullying idols and just appreciate their talents and hardwork. huwaw may pa ganyan si ate. Hahahahaha. Anywayyyysssss, thank youuuuuuuuu for reading this chapter! Hope you have a wonderful day and remember seventeen and i love you. :)