Lucky You're Mine • svt

chapter 34: goodbye?

It's been 4 months since the accident happened. I have fully recovered now,  and i am happy to be back with the girls. Pd-nim decided to just cancel our show together "one fine day" since he saw all the shit happen. Me and jun were fighting from time to time, jihyun that little bitch appeared, and we broke up. Welp, that's life. I have moved on from him anyways. Our relationship didn't last THAT long you know, so it was easy as cake.

Pledis already announced our split, me and jun to the public. So that there would be no more articles and theories about what happened to us. But i told our manager to just keep it a secret about what REALLY happened. Instead, they just said that we were too busy to be with eachother. Fans were very sad to hear the news whilst those fans who hated me to death were celebrating. Well i don't give a fuck, soo........

If you're wondering what happens whenever me and jun bump into eachother or meet in the pledis building or just any type of interaction with eachother, well we ignore eachother. We don't talk to one another unless it's really necessary. Like if we're on a tv show, or when we are both MC's for a show. But seventeen and eclipse still have a strong friendship. Minghao, in the past few months has been taking care of me. He acted like the boyfriend when jun was supposed to be in that position. I know that he still loves me, i sense it. That boy would literally die for me even if he doesn't admit it. I feel bad since back when he confessed to me, i couldn't reply since me and jun were together that time. Aishh, here i am again, cho yeri: overthinking.

I heard my phone buzz so i stood up from my bed in my pajamas and i looked at my phone as i was putting my hair in a messy bun.

minghao✌ sent you a message.

minghao✌
goodmorning ri, let's meet later at the cafe. I have to tell you something important. See you at 4:00 pm :)

Omo, why do i feel nervous and sad all of a sudden?! Aish what am i thinking. I actually think this is the perfect timing to confess to him. Oops, hehe sorry i didn't make it clear earlier. Ever since he started taking care of me and looked over me, i started falling for him. He just made me feel so special and loved, not like how jun treated me. We would always fight which is not healthy for a relationship, that's why we broke up. I'm sure about my feelings so i'm gonna go for it.

I got into the shower and put on my oversized hoodie and a pair of jeans then wore my converse. I did my makeup, just a simple everyday look just because i wanted to do so.

I put my hair in a high ponytail then put mascara on my eyelashes. I also put on cheek and lip tint to my face so i don't look like a pale ghost. I walked to the cafe.

I searched around the place then minghao called me. "yeri! over here" he waved his hands and i waved back. Wooh i felt the butterflies in my stomach. I sat down. "hey, are you okay?" he asked worriedly. I shook my head. "y-yes, i'm f-f-fine" shit. Why do i stutter so much?!

"yah, why are you stuttering? Is there something wrong? Do you want to tell me something?" he asked holding my hands. Fuck fuck fuck. Idk why i'm more scared here when i confessed to jun on stage. FREAKING ON STAGE! shibal.

"yes i actually do, but say what you want (say what you want! Nega jinjjaro wonhaneun ge mwoya! Lol idk if the lyrics are right, hahahaha sorry armies) first." i told him. "no, let's just do this. We say what we want to say at the same time. I will count 1-5 then we say it, arasseo?" wait, this is familiar. Ahhhhh, this happened when i broke up with jun. I shrug the thought out of my head and just nodded.

He started counting.

1

2

3

4

5!

"i'm going back to china"

"i think i love you"

We stared at eachother shocked. "w-what did you say?" i said surprised at what he said. He looked down, sad.

"i'm going back to china, yeri" he sighed. But why? Why all of a sudden?! I didn't realize that i said that out loud. "i just, miss home yeri. I want to take a break. I want to go home" i looked at him in disbelief. I don't believe him. "what do you mean you miss home?! I miss my home, too minghao but it shouldn't lead to the point where you will go back to china just because you miss it there! I don't believe you minghao." i said to him confusion and anger in the tone of my voice.

He avoided my question. "just, don't think about it. But are you serious?" he said looking at me. "what do you mean?"

"do you love me??" he said. I nodded. "yes i do, pabo. But why are you leaving me?" i told him about to cry. He pulled me into a hug. I didn't want to let go. "i'm so sorry, i love you too, but we can't do this. It really hurts me that we can't be together"

"why not, hao? Just stay here, don't leave me. If you leave, you will make a lot of people suffer. Not just me, but seventeen! Your fans, carats! They will suffer. Just tell me the reason why you're leaving~ jebal" i said crying onto his shoulder. I hugged him tighter. "i'm just tired yeri, and i know that already. I already told seventeen about it and they let me go. You can't change my mind, i'm sorry" he told me. I let go off him. I got angry.

"how can you just leave out of the blue then not tell me the reason why you're leaving?! If you really want to go so badly, then go! Go, minghao! If you really love me then you would stay here with me, with us! But you don't even seem to care. Just go, leave me. Everyone leaves me anyways. I'll never talk to you, or even show myself to you. Thank you for taking care of me, thank you for saving my life. Thank you for hurting me in the end and making me realize that no one loves me. Thank you for ending my life also. Thanks." i said. I left him speechless as i stomped out of the cafe. I was so angry and i felt so betrayed. I wiped the tears off my face and went to the lake, where we would go together, but not anymore.

I grabbed a pebble. "WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?! GODDAMIT WHY AM I SO UNLUCKY?! AM I REALLY THAT BAD OF A HUMAN BEING THAT NO ONE LOVES ME?! WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE! THIS HURTS MORE THAN DYING ANYWAYS. JUST TAKE ME, PLEASE. IT HURTS, SO BAD." i said then threw the pebble with force. I sunk down to the ground and just cried. I was sobbing and i couldn't control my tears.

Minghao's POV

"how can you just leave out of the blue then not tell me the reason why you're leaving?! If you really want to go so badly, then go! Go, minghao! If you really love me then you would stay here with me, with us! But you don't even seem to care. Just go, leave me. Everyone leaves me anyways. I'll never talk to you, or even show myself to you. Thank you for taking care of me, thank you for saving my life. Thank you for hurting me in the end and making me realize that no one loves me. Thank you for ending my life also. Thanks." she said. She looked so hurt while i just sat there, speechless.

She stomped out of the cafe and i followed her with my eyes. She was running to the direction where the lake we always used to go to was located. Maybe she's going there. I decided to follow her to the place.

I hid behind the bushes. She was crying so much, it broke my heart into tiny pieces. She grabbed a pebble then shouted. "WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?! GODDAMIT WHY AM I SO UNLUCKY?! AM I REALLY THAT BAD OF A HUMAN BEING THAT NO ONE LOVES ME?! WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE! THIS HURTS MORE THAN DYING ANYWAYS. JUST TAKE ME, PLEASE. IT HURTS, SO BAD." i wanted to run to her and hug her tightly, but i couldn't. I watched her fall down to the ground as she cried even more.

I wanted to punch myself. I am so sorry yeri, i love you so much. But i need to go. I hope you'll understand me when you find out the truth.

HOLY SHIT GUYS. I feel bad for yeri, huhu :'( but why is minghao leaving??

*insert hobi* oh my god my heart is, my heart is- omygod.