Understanding Me

Lauren

"Excuse me?" I said with a lot of sass and anger in my voice. Why would he bring her up? How the hell did he even know who she was? By now everyone was subtly looking at Loki and I.

"You already knew about your power, didn't you?" Loki stated with a tiny smirk on his face. What the actually hell! How would I know about this? Even if I did I would have told someone ages ago. They all just looked at me questionably, they wanted answers from me that I couldn't give them.

"What are you talking about?" I was starting to get angry now, he was being annoyingly ambiguous. He could see it in my eyes but wanted to keep torturing me about it. Now I really understand the definition of asshole. He was evil and manipulative. I understand why he is the villain to Asgard or whatever.

"You can't tell me you don't remember Maddy. Why don't you tell us about that night with dear Lauren?" It hit me like a tonne of bricks, that night, Lauren... everything came flooding back.

"who's Lauren?" Asked Thor, but I could tell that that same question was on everyone's minds, they probably just didn't want to say anything.

"Lauren... Lauren was my sister. She died when I was nine. On our way home from the park one night we walked through an alleyway, but at the end... there was a guy, dressed all in black. My sister stepped in front of me with all hopes she would keep me safe. The guy pulled out a gun and shot my sister three times in the chest. She fell to the floor immediately, bleeding out next to me as there was nothing I could do. That's when he turned to me. He shot me twice in the shoulder, once in the stomach and twice in the chest, he actually hit my heart. I was dead for nine hours till I woke up again. They told me it was a miracle! After the accident I blamed myself for her death but my parents constantly told me it wasn't. I began to self-harm but along with all the other cuts they faded away, I thought it was normal and what happened to other people. Everyone at school stared to call me a freak and a murderer, saying I let my sister die... that's when it happened." They all just stared at me, I knew they all felt sorry for me. I also know they all wanted me to continue with the story. I just had to stop briefly because I had suppressed the memory for so long and also because it was breaking me slightly.

"Then what happened?" Asked Thor again, also asking the question that's on everyone's minds.

"Then I tried to kill myself. Of course it didn't work. When my parents found out they didn't understand, they didn't know what to do with me. That's when the arguing stared. Ever since then I've tried to forget. Then the fire, then this. Now I guess it's all coming back." I said It all at once. My entire life story, told to a bunch of strangers. I didn't know why I told them, maybe it was fitting since we would be working together. I just thought If anyone could understand, it would be them. They all looked at me in sorrow, even Loki which was a surprise. I guess he didn't look far enough to know about my suicide attempt. But now they know, now everyone knows.

Bruce took me on a long tour around the Helicarrier, stopping at key parts of the ship, finally finishing with 'my' room. At least it gave me time to think about the previous events of that day. The very long, sad, and embarrassing day. I think a sleep was deserved. We eventually got to my room and I was just about to walk in when Bruce grabbed my arm. I was startled and turned around to face him, just to find him staring at the floor.

"I understand what you went through. I tried once. It didn't work, the other guy just choked it up. I-I will never understand what it means to be human, and I think you do to. Don't get me wrong it's an amazing gift, but I can see it in your eyes that it's hurting you. We can find out what this is. We can help you." He was nice, he offered to help me, something my mum or dad never understood. He understood what I was going through, I thought I was alone but obviously not. I just looked into his eyes and said...

"Thank you, Bruce." Maybe this was why I was here, to find myself?

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