Pain and Love Comes in Many Forms

Chapter Eleven

He managed to escape every time I pushed.

Every time.

I felt terrible, but for everyone else, I never let on.

I let months pass when the both of us became busy, and I just- stopped seeing him.

"So, it's nice to have you back on the show, after the whole fiasco last time."

"I am so sorry about that. If it's any consolation, I made up with him not soon after, so I thank you for that."

Emily and the audience laughed a bit, "well, how have things been then? We all recall this gem," she flashed a clip showing me kissing everyone at that fucking live party.

"I hate that party for so many reasons. It's fun, but I've dated and kissed a decent sum of those people."

"That was quite a shocking revelation, and you even kissed the childhood friend you never confessed to?"

"Yeah, low point in life, we were both idiots, my mom yelled at me for a solid ten minutes." I informed.

"Well, you two shared quite a passionate kiss."

"That was the dare. I can guarantee nothing else happened afterwards," I said with a chuckle.

"Well, That brings me to my first question, are you still single? If so, anyone on you mind?"

"Yeah, I'm still single. I've dated a lot of people and I just, never could replicate the feelings I had. Relationships usually ended not to long after they kissed me."

"Why's that?"

"Only one person in my life did I ever kiss where I felt, this weird sensation when I kissed them. I'm afraid I'll never be able to replicate such a feeling."

Emily raised a brow, "so you think you'll only love that person? Or that they're the one?"

"I'm not going to beat around the bush here, even after all this shit he did, I still love him. Jack realizes his mistakes, and keeps on apologizing. He respects me a lot and it's painful to see him act like because of his mistake he doesn't deserve anyone."

"So h-"

"He knows full well my feelings for him. He doesn't reject them, I know he loves me, but he says I deserve better."

"You both are hard on yourselves." Emily said kindly.

I nodded, "I guess that's something we'll have to overcome."

"You're a very interesting guy. No wonder so many people look up to you. After all your experiences, you truly are an icon." She complimented.

I laughed, ruffling my hair, "I'm glad I could help people. I like when people smile, it shows a whole new side to a person."

"Why," she grinned, "what a sweet thing to say. Now, our next question is more on your family."

"Oh! What dirt did you dig up?" I jokingly asked.

"We discovered you have a half b-"

"He's a piece of shit."

"Strong opinion there," Emily responded.

"He was arrested for domestic abuse and accused of having child pornography as well as abusing his kid in a sexual way. My family doesn't talk to him."

"Wow! That is-" Emily struggled to find words, "Wow."

"Yup."

"Did you two ever get along?"