Pain and Love Comes in Many Forms

Chapter Seventeen

another interview. Such eventful things come from interviews.

It was a different show this time since the previous show only allowed one guest and now it had to be Jack and me.

"Welcome back to The CCT, the Celebrity couple talk show! I'm your host, John Mayor! Today we have the Famous Jack Queen and Ethan King with us! Nice to meet you two!"

"Thanks for having us!" Jack hummed peacefully.

"Well, you two would be the first gay couple I've had on."

I smiled through annoyance. What a blunt way to phrase things.

"That's fun..." jack said awkwardly.

"Well," John said, "let's get to the questions."

I nodded, "go ahead."

"When did you two first realize you like each other?"

"I was ten. Horrible day for me for so many reasons. Went over to his house and basically was like, 'oh my god I'm so gay.' And that's that." I informed.

"Almost everyone knows that much, but what about Mr. Queen?"

Jack flushed, "well, to be honest, it was a few different times? I didn't quite get it the first few times. The first time was when I got protective over him when he was ten, but at the time, I had no clue the feeling. Second time was when we were experimenting. I kinda understood my feelings then. Then I truly fully realized my feelings when it was too late and he left town."

"Experiment? I know you have mentioned t before but-"

"It's a part we both regret doing for many reasons. We were playing a game, and the main characters turned out gay because of how we played them."

Jack decided to add, "there was multiple cutscenes you were able to unlock and endings you could get."

"After our characters ended up confessing to each other, we talked for a bit about it. I had to hide that i was gay since I wasn't sure about anything, and then this guy kisses me," I informed

"I apologized, but it ended out alright?"

"It did," I chuckled, "anyways, he brought up the whole experiment thing after realizing I was the best kisser of something? I denied and he backed off, obviously."

"I respect you."

"I know. Anyways, I decided, 'why not' and went with it until everything sorta blew up in our faces."

"Blew up?" John pressed.

"That information is classified. It's fine now. After I lost my memories because of the crash, even though I'm still recovering, some memories came back clearer than before. Cleared a lot up." I smiled at Jack, who's ears went pink.

"You're killing us here," John chucked.

"Not all the things I remembered are exactly pleasant. Paints my boyfriend in a better light though."

Jack scratched the back of his neck, smiling a bit.

"So, maybe this is intimate, how far has your relationship gone?"

"He's the only person I slept with, that's known," I shrugged.

"What about you?"

Jack's smile dropped, "my teenage years before falling completely in love with Ethan were...."

"I'm the first and only guy he's been with. Not the first person, but it's fine, I accepted that back when we were teenagers. Expecting him to never have sex before he fell for me? That's unrealistic."

"You're not bothered you boyfriend has been with other people?"

"Not really. Again, teenagers. We lived in a small town too. I think heather was the only girl he hadn't been with."

"You're painting me in a horrible light here."

"It's not like I care. From what I'm aware, you haven't been with anyone besides me since then, and you're faithful, so past love life doesn't matter."

"That's quite mature," John stated, "many people have a hard time dealing with the idea of their partner having previous girls or men."

"I'm desensitized really. Being an actor and seeing those types of scenes, playing parts in those types of scenes, I'm unfazed. Besides, I've kissed more people than people he slept with. If he's not bothered by that, I'm not bothered."

"I'm just remembering that game of spin the bottle. Literally everyone there kissed you."

"That bottle had to have been jinxed," I grumbled.

Jack smirked, "in all honesty, it wouldn't surprise me."

John looked a bit left out. On his own show too.... sorry about that!

"Well, moving on, because of Ethan's situation, the two of you are living together?"

"When was the last time you were at your own house?" I asked Jack.

"Before the crash. So about four-five months."

"Your house is probably in ruins," I snorted.

"You've been away that long?" John questioned.

"Well, I was looking after Ethan's place while he was in a coma and then I was asked to look after him, so I never felt the need to go home."

"You're always the same."

"What type of place do you live in?" John questioned.

"Well," the fact he was in thought spoke volumes about his time away, "it's a lot smaller than Ethan's place, since it's only one bed and one bath. I'm hardly there, so I never found a reason to stick so close to it. Nor was their a reason for it to be even remotely big."

"At this rate, I feel like he's moving in."

"He's not?" John asked, obviously surprised.

"We haven't had that sort of talk at all," I admitted with a shrug.

"We have been dating awhile, but granted, about three of those months he spent in a coma." Jack reminded.

"How did you feel when you heard-"

"That his plane crashed. Pretty fucking horrible. And I hate to be rude, but I'd rather not talk about it since it wasn't only me affected by it. Some people actually lost people, so don't ask about the crash." The was a sharp edge in his voice, a bitterness I never heard before.

"I apologize. I wasn't thinking. Let's move on."

The questions flew by in a flash, and I could hardly recall half of them.

"Thank you," I rose to my feet, "for having us-"

I Got lightheaded, stumbling. Luckily jack caught me.

"Is he okay?" John asked.

"I don't know, someone calm an ambulance!" Jack shouted.

My head was swirling.

"No, no, no, no, no." I was rumbling.

"Jesus Christ, Ethan-"

"No, the fire, so much fire. Why are their so many bodies? Why- oh god, oh god, oh god-"

It was obvious what memory was returning, and no one knew the camera was still on, everyone was rushing around. It was a live broadcast too!

"Everything hurt. I can't breathe!" I choked out.

"Ethan-"

"No, no, no. Why? He was so young! Why did I survive!"

I was plunged into my recent past.