YOUR HAPPINESS OVER MINE ↠ DANIEL SEAVEY

20: Second Choice

The glowing sunlight hit my eyes causing my slumber to disappear. I woke up seated at the desk with the notebook in my arms along with the pen. Seeing my writing, I smiled at my efforts looking how much I've written before closing the book shut.

I tried to be positive. Daniel's word lingered through my mind as I started to stretch from the uncomfortable sleeping positions. Everything will work out in the end. A puff of relief escaped my lips hopping out of the chair looking to phone. Tons of messages and missed phone calls were placed on the screen as I shook my head not caring.

Sliding my way into the shower, I allowed myself to relax from the constant stress and pressure I was under. I tried to shift into Daniel's uplifting persona, but only tears were able to escape. It blended into the water drizzling down my body as I shook my head not letting myself be torn apart.

"You're okay. You're okay," I breathed out shaking away the mistakes and the sadness from the previous day.

It became harder and harder to breathe drowning my sorrows with the sounds of the water hitting the tub. My chest became uneasy as I closed my eyes shaking my head to try and take away the terrible thoughts.

I was having an anxiety attack.

The weight of the world was attached to my shoulders thinking I disappointed my parents and myself. I felt a nagging feeling of guilt suppress my body as I try to shake it off. It wasn't worth it. I had another chance.

I relaxed breathing heavily at the previous situation trying to calm down. From all the stress and nervousness of this trip, I wasn't surprise that this had occurred. A steady rhythm of my breathing had finally dilated as I turned the shower head turning it off.

I got out of the shower in a much better mood changing into different clothes. It was still quite early in the morning hearing nothing but silence throughout the apartment. Music had been blasting among the small room as I was packing and picking outfits for the day to come.

I wasn't looking forward to the flight coming my way later tomorrow morning, but it had given me one more day in New York to explore. Calling this small room my home for about three days was grand as I saw a text message from Christina that sparked my interest.

cutest chickee
hey! heard you're in town and i don't have classes this weekend, so do you wanna meet up?

me
of course! just tell me the plan and we could do something today

She quickly called me seeing I was awake at this hour telling me about exploring the city in all its glory. I happily agreed sending her the address of the apartment as she stated she would be here in a couple hours. I smiled at the phone knowing something had gone well on this trip starting to get ready.

Allison

"You don't mean that," I spoke teary-eyed.

"I mean, I don't know. It's hard to balance a relationship with you. I guess, it's just tiring," he sighed rubbing his eyes in tiredness.

"So this relationship is tiring to you?"

I pushed my head to my arms not sure what this situation has held. It was too early in the morning or too late at night. Zach called me making me concerned with what would happen between us. We've been dating for almost two months and we're already having problems.

"You know it's our two month anniversary next week," I shook my head with a dry chuckle thinking of how stupid I was to be caught up in weird feelings.

I saw him through the phone that only made him feel worse. My silenced cries were heard through the phone. Zach and I haven't fought much, but maybe it was because there wasn't anything worth fighting for. I looked into his eyes seeing that he had so much guilt build inside him it was eating him from the inside out.