From abnegation to dauntless (FATD) || ✓ Completed

Chapter 22

So Imma skip til the end of initiation

     Tris POV

I'm walking through Dauntless hallways, which are empty. It's understandable since everyone is in the pit for the post-initiation celebration. I turn left, the way to the pit assuming it would be empty. What I see breaks my heart into million pieces. Tobias kissing Lauren, their bodies pressed together her against the wall. His hands are on her waist pressing her to the wall. Tears flow down my cheeks. "F-Four?" I ask, my voice breaking. He pulls away and looks at me surprised. "Tris! Hey, it's not what it looks like!" he claims. Oh is he seriously sinking that low? "Oh really? So you weren't kissing Lauren and clearly by your own choise?" I ask sarcastically, trying to hide my pain. I shake my head and take off the ring that he proposed to me with. I throw it in his face and say "Don't bother. We're done." I walk away and let myself break. Tears blur my vision as I stumble to the Pit. Chris is the first one to notice me. "Tris, what's wrong?" she questions when she reaches me. "I- I-" I try to ssay but sobs break my voice. She hugs me and I cry to her shoulder. She hugs me tighter, like she's trying to put the broken pieces back together. That's how our friendship works, we make each other stronger. Once my sobs die down I oull away. "Thanks Chris" Then I hear a voice that threathens to make me cry again. "Tris!" Four yells and approaches me. "What do you want, Four?" I ask, trying to sound emotionless. "Tris please, let me explain!" he pleads. I look at him in disbelief. "There's nothing to explain!" I yell and slap him hard. I take Chris's hand and run away, not caring that he yells after me. 

   "Tris, you have got ot tell me what happened!" Chris says in a strict voice once we stop, placing her hands on my shoulders. I sigh and start telling her. "I was on my way to the Pit when I turned left. I saw Four kissing Lauren. And before you say maybe she started it, no, she might have, but he was pressing her to the wall and their bodies were pressed together. It seemed pretty passionate. So I told him we're done, threw my ring at him and ran off." "Oh sweets!" Chris exclaims before huggin' me again. I hug back and we stay that way for a while. "Hey, how 'bout we have a girls night? Eat Dauntless cake, ice cream, watch a movie, talk sh*t about Four?" she suggests. "That sounds great!" I smile to my best friend. "Now come on, let's tell the others." "Okay..."

       We arrive to the Pit and I immediatly spot the gang. Unfortunately, Four is with them. I stiffen and anger, pain, loss, hurt and misery mix inside of me. Chris rubs my shoulder and I give her a weak  smile. Once we get to them I notice they're all talking, so obviously they don't know. "Hey Tris, Chris." Uriah greets us. "Yeah, hi, Number boy, you got to go before I rip your head off!" Chris shoots back. "Wow, why?" Zeke asks. "Four cheated on Tris with Lauren." "You did WHAT?!!" Everyone yells at the same time. "How could you?" Lynn scolds. "Dude, you better leave before I do something I probs won't regret." Zeke says through gritted theeth. Four just turns around and walks away with a blank expression on his face. "I'm so sorry!" "Did you have any idea?" I think about the last question. "Well, he was kinda distant, and when I asked if everything was all right, he snapped at me." I remember. I start crying and everyone hugs me in a big group hug. I stay in their embrace as my crying turns to sobs, and when my sobs finally die down. I wipe the remaining tears away and smile looking at everyone. "Thanks guys, you're the best!" I exclaim. "Hey, Mar, Shauna, Lynn, wanna have a girls night with me and Tris?" Chris asks. "Yeah, totally!" Shauna chears. "Hell yeah!" Mar exclaims. We all turn to look at Lynn. "Fine, if you don't make go shopping!"she agrees. Chris flashes her a wicked smile. "No promises." "Chris, we are not going shopping!" I yell. "Fine" she pouts. Then suddenly I get an idea. "Chris!" I exclaim. "Tris! What?" she exclaims too. "I want to go to a hair salon!" I tell her. "Okay!" she cheers but I see a glint of something in her eyes. Worry? No, can't be, I'm perfectly fine. "Bye pansycakes!" I yell and start towards a hair salon called 'Dauntless hair'(AN/ yeah I'm really original with nameing stuff). Chris runs after me. "Are you sure you're okay, sweets?" she asks worriedly. "Christina. I'm fine. Well, not fine.bur you have to let me do this." I tell her. She nods and says "Then let's do this."

    Three hours later we walk out of the hair Salon. It's not usually my style to do something really Dauntless or radical, but I just did. I cut my hair so it's to my collarbones. Then I dyed it platinum blonde with bright purple stripes. Really radical, but I like it. I can't look the same anymore. How could I with Four gone? Me and Chris walk to a store to get some ice cream and Chris gets some Tequila. I'm not going to drink, but she says 'just in case and for later'. We're on the ice cream isle choosing what to get when I hear a voice I haven't heard in a while. "Tris?" Clabes voice is full of disbelief. "Caleb!" I exclaim and hug him. He hugs back. "You look so different." he mumbles to my hair. I pull away. "Yeah, I just broke up with my fiancé", I admit and oush a strand of my newly colored hair behind my ear. "I'm so sorry! Why?" he asks. "He cheated on me..." I mumble looking at the floor. "He did WHAT?! Who is this guy? I'm gonna teach him not to mess with my little sister!" Overprotective brother much? "Caleb, even if you tried, you couldn't. He's a Dauntless prodigy." I tell him. He places his hands on my shoulders and looks me dead in the eye. "Prodigy or not, he hurt you. I can see it in your eyes when you talk of him." "I miss him." I simply state. And that's true. My heart aches every time I think of his blue eyes. Tears fill my eyes again, but I quickly blink them away. "Sorry to break this family reunion, but Tris, we should get going to meet Mar, Shauna and Lynn", Chris says. I hug Caleb one one more time. Heg wraps his arms around my in a protective way. "We have a sister by the way. She's called Victoria", I whisper in his ear. "Really?" he whispers back. "Yes." I can tell his smiling. "Tell her love from his big bro, will ya?" "Of course." I whisper before pulling away. "Was nice seeing ya bro!" I say and ruffle his hair. He laughs and says "Bye." I watch him turn and walk away. Then I trun to Chris. She's holding 5 tubs of ice cream. "Cookie dough for me, chocolate brownie for you, vanilla for Marlene, strawberry for Shauna and coffee flavor for Lynn", she exclaims. "Awesome." I say and teke a few of the tubes so she doesn't have to carry all of them. We pay up and walk to Chris's, where we left the other girls to wait after gettin' what the wanted. Chris unlocks the door to find all the girls, exept Lynn snoggin with their significant other. Chris sighs and places one hand on her hip. "Allright, all the boys out!" When nothing happens she gets agitated. "NOW!" she yells and all the boys scurry off. "Now, girls. It's movie time! Tris, do you wanna watch a lovie dovie movie, or one with no love story?" Chris asks. I think for a while. "I have this old movie called the Hunger Games. I'm not sure if there's romance, but I don't mind if there is", I tell her. She claps her hands together. "Hunger Games it is!" she exclaims and the girls cheer. I try to smile with them, and act happy, but I'm just a hollow shell. I sit down on the couch and Cris hands me my ice cream. Once everyone is seated, Shauna presses play and the movie starts. I try to focus on the movie and the taste of ice cream on my tongue, instead of the pain on my heart. They say it takes 1000 times longer to put yourself back together than to fall apart. I didn't really have an apinion on that, until now. I can say that it's definetly true. 

     Around halfway through the movie, during a scene where Rue is dying and all of us are crying our eyes out, there's a knock on the door. "I'll get it", I volunteer - not as tribute. I wipe away my tears as I get to the door. I open it to face the person that makes me cry again. "What do you want, Four?" I ask, my voice breaking. "Tris please... I'm really sorry. I don't know why I did it it just happened! She started i!" he pleads. I feel anger boil inside of me. "She may have started it but all thast matters is that you continued it! You were kissing her! You had her against the wall! It's your fault even more." I declare and slap him before pulling the door shut. Tears stream down my face as I run to the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I hear the others run after me but I dont care. "Tris! What's wrong?" Chris asks through the door. Someone beats the door. "Tris!" All of the beg me to come out. I ignore them and slide down. I sit my back against the wall, pulling my legs to my chest and pressing my head to my knees. First I'm full out crying and a moment later only sobbing. Once they die sown too I get up and make my way to the mirrored sink. I see a pair of scissors and get an idea. With steady hands I pick them up. I raise them to my hair and catch my eyes in the mirror. They seem detirmined, hurt and empty. I start cutting and hold my breath as I watch blonde and purple locks fall to the soft mat I'm standing on.

AN/ sorry. Just. Sorry.

Bye pansycakes!

~Me