Kissing Her

The end // Thank You💗

So, now is this book at the end. It has truly been a journey, writing it. Actually starting out as a girl who thought she was straight and wanted to see if he could create love between two girls just like between a boy and a girl. I wanted to see if it was "any different". And it isn't. 

The love between two people of the same sex is exactly the same as between two of the opposite sexes. Yes, I discovered during the journey of writing the book that I, in fact, was bisexual, but that doesn't change anything of what I learned and got out of the prosses.

The book helped me discover who I was, yes. (But it did not "turn me bisexual" for those who wonder).

I had told my friends about the book, but they didn't care pretty much. I really think they had the idea that I at least was a part of the lgbtq+-community, already, but wanted me to find it out for myself.

But that's something I now see afterwards. If I had seen that when I was in the middle of comming out to myself, I could have discussed it with a friend instead. And that's where this book came in and helped me a lot. The book was like that friend that I talked and opened up to.

(Don't get me wrong, I really do talk to my real friends too, but some matters have to be thought through with oneself first).

In some periods I would write a lot and was always a chapter ahead of the one I had just published. On the other hand, in some periods nothing would come and once I nearly cathegorized Wattpad as homework (super sorry Wattpad -it wil never happen again. Love you so much💗). I always felt bad for not updating for a really long time, when I came back.

Because, even how the prosess was, I would always go back to the book. Even if I didn't want to write on it one week, then I would always find inspiration and motivation to continue days, weeks or even months later. And I really think that's what has kept me doing this and actually made me mange to finnish the book. This is the first book I have fully written so far (in my entire life, except from a short story in 5 parts in my mother tounge, oops).

I always have like 20 ideas in my head at a time and it really frustrates me to not being able to just write out a book for each one of them, just like that. If it's one thing this book has thought me (except for the fact that girlxgirl relationship can do just as well in a book as any other romanze), it has to be that an entire book isn't just made in a sencond.

This book took me 3 years. (I joined Wattpad in September 2015 and I think I started this book at around the same time).

Secondly, writing this book thought me that and if you just allow your mind to work on an idea for a little while, it can actually develop into something quite good.

An idea will change and form over time. It will always turn out as different from what you first thought it was gonna be like. It's because you always develop. And even if you write a book in less time than a week, you've still changed since the day you started. Anything around you influeces you -it don't even need you to notice that it does.

If you just leave your idea untouched for too long, then you will never see what the true beauty of it could be.

Sorry, I had to get it out. #hiddenpoet💗

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The last thing I wanna say to you guys, is that I love

Every.

Single.

One.

Of.

You.

Who has taken their time to read the book.

- Even if you didn't like it (then you probably won't see this either, bad for you lol). The one's of you who has voted and commented and spread love: YOU ARE BAE AND I LOVE YOU💗 oh gawd I need to slow down, here.

No, but seriously. Since I've been making this book for 3 years, the best is always to see that you like what I do and that I'm not writing to a wall or two a mass of zombies or something.

My last words (This part is now way too long):

THANK YOU. GOODBYE, GONNA MISS YOU ALL XD❤

(Seriously, I have to chill with the capitals haha).

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For the last time (oh don't say that *wink wink*), 

Me❤