SHITS AND GIGGLES

lyrics again because why not

About my feelings. Pretty much a vent.

Im tired of being what you want
Me to be
Feeling so faithless,
Lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting
Of me
Put under the pressure of
Walking in your shoes
Every step that I take
Is another mistake to you
I've become so numb, I can't feel
You there
Become so tired, so much more
Aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do is be more like me
And be less than you!
Can't you see that you're smothering
Me? Holding too tightly, afraid
To lose control
Cause everything you thought
I would be is falling apart in front
Of you
.........
And every second I waste is
More than I can take
.....
And I know I may end failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you!
......

When this began, I had nothing
To say and I get lost in
The nothingness inside of me
I was confused and I let it
All out to find im not the only
Person with these things in mind
Inside of me but all the vacancy
The words revealed the only thing
That I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own..
And the fault is my own
I WANNA HEAL
I WANNA FEEL WHAT I
THOUGHT WAS NEVER REAL!
I want to let go of the pain i
Held so long
....
I want to find something I've wanted
All along, somewhere I belong
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall
Right on my face
...
So what am I ?
What do I have negativity?
Cause I can't justify
The way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain
.....
I will never know myself until
I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break
Away from me
.....

Memories consume, like
Opening the wounds
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume I'm safe
Here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
And inside I realized I'm the one
Confused
I don't know whats worth fighting
For! Or why I have to scream!
I don't know why I instigate
Or say what I don't mean!
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not right!
.....
I'll paint it on the walls!
Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And This is how it ends!
......

I can't escape this hell,
So many time I tried,
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody help me get this
Through this nightmare, I can't
Control myself
.....
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this
Animal!
......
I can't escape myself
So many time I lied
.......
So what if you can see the darkest
Side of me?
No one can ever change this
Animal I have become
....

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
....
Only when I stop and to think
About it..
I. HATE. EVERYTHING.
ABOUT. YOU.
Why do I love you?
.....

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We hit the sun, there goes the light,
No more sun, why's it always night?
When you can't sleep, well, you
Can't dream, when you can't
Dream, well, what's life means?
We feel a little pity but don't
Empathize
The old of getting older,
Watch a young girl die
A mother and daughter and
Someone you know, smile at
Each other and realize you don't
You don't know what happened
To that kid you raised
What happened to the father who
Swore he'd stay
I didn't know because you didn't
Say
Now momma feels guilt, yeah
Momma feels pain
When you were younger, you
Thought you'd never die,
Found out you could but too scared
To try, you looked in the mirror
And said goodbye
Climb to the roof to see if you could
Fly
....
I wish that I could fly,
Way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try
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