Euphoric but Empty

Dan

It had been a week since Dan moved in with Phil. The two had become very close in the past 7 days. Phil knew more about Dan then anyone in the world and the same goes for Dan. They have grown very close and they were each others best friends. Then, one fateful day, they were playing Crash Bandicoot and Dan caught a glimpse of Phil's tattoo and decided today was as good as any to ask.
"Hey I never got to ask about your tattoo." Dan said after finishing their level. Phil sighs and throws his controller on the ground, burying his head in his hands.
"I hate the stupid thing! I wish I'd never got it." Phil said.
"Why did you get it then?" Dan asked, genuinely confused.
"Well, when I got it, I was feeling especially angry about how people don't understand me. I wanted people to see how I felt on the inside. So I got a tattoo that was representative of my feelings." Phil said with a small smirk. Dan smiled softly in response. He stood up and walked towards Phil. They were so close Dan could practically smell him. Haribo. All Dan wanted to do was inhale Phil for the rest of time. But instead he reaches out and tenderly touches Phil's arm. Phil winces slightly at the warm touch. Then, with one look into Dan's chocolate brown eyes he relaxes immediately. Dan softly reaches to push the right sleeve of Phil's tee up to reveal the tattoo. He is mesmorized.
The tattoo is a depiction of Phil, but instead of his gorgeous oceanic eyes there are soulless black ones in their place. A crimson colored tear drips from one of his eyes. Where Phil's heart should be there is a black heart surrounded by a cloud of darkness. Flames of the most vibrant reds and oranges engulf him.
Dan feels tears pricking at the corners of his vision. A look of concern flashes across his face. Dan is feeling conflicted. He feels great concern for Phil but at the same time he wants to love him so much that he learns to love himself. As Dan meets Phil's gaze, words finally make their way up his throat and come spilling out of his mouth.
"It's beautiful." Dan finally says. The tension in Phil is visibly eased. Dan gently lifts Phil's chin so he cannot look away as he says the next words.
"You're beautiful." Dan whispers in a serious but gentle tone. Then he tenderly presses his lips to Phil's. Phil was surprised at first but then he settled into the kiss he wanted time to hold him in that moment. To make it, everlasting. Dan kissed Phil with everything he had. All his love and sorrow. He kissed Phil with all the beauty Phil brings to his world. When they finally come up for air. Phil just stares at Dan.
"Wow." He says. They both chuckle. Phil picks up his controller. "If I win we kiss?" Phil says. Dan takes Phil's controller and tosses it behind his back.
"Or we could just kiss." Dan said raising an eyebrow and smirking. Phil shrugged and their lips collided. They stumbled towards Phil's bed. They never spit for a second. They laid down on the bed. Phil on top with Dan under him. They were so engulfed in each other. Dan doesn't remember exactly when they feel asleep, all he remembers is falling asleep in the warm embrace of a gorgeous raven haired boy.