A Dusk By Any Other Name (BoyxBoy)

XXVII: Letonin; Broken

I started crying the second Death made contact with him. Now seeing his unconscious body laying on the ground...

Why?...

Why me?...

Why... him?...

God... I can't stop crying... and my mind itself felt like it's drowning.... burning... I can't tell which...

I can't lose him like this after everything we've been through...

I put on a tough act for him so he could do this painlessly, but the fact is that I'm pitifully weak... I was stronger with him around... But without his memories, I feel like he's dead. Like he died, and took my life along with his.

....My life along with his...

"Death..." I whispered.

"No."

"Please..." I begged.

"No."

I clenched the skin over my heart painfully. "Death..... I can't live with myself... I swear to God, if you don't do this, I'll kill myself!"

The others around us quickly protested, telling me things I should look forward to, that I should be happy he's alive.

Well, they're right. He is still alive. But he's a living torture to me... Because for as long as I can remember, I've been terrified of being forgotten...

Death sighed and kneeled beside me. "Memories are a precious thing, you know..."

"They mean nothing if you can't share them with the people you love." I argued.

"You're being hypocritical... What about us?" Cyrine asked. "You don't think we'll be hurt if you do this to yourself? What do you think Danny would say to you right now?"

I stood up, wiping away my tears with my sleeve.

"I don't have to forget you all completely... But I want to start over with him... We have nothing to share with each other now, and that's hard for me to accept given everything we've been through. And he deserves the chance of a normal life, that's why Death erased his memory in the first place."

"What are you trying to say?" Death challenged.

"I'm saying that I'm willing to sacrifice my memories, my power, and my title. Just to make new memories with him. He is the light that shines upon the moon's dusk before it. He gives meaning to my name, to my life. I will do anything..." I began to weep once more... "Anything...."

"...Because I'm that selfish..."

A moment of silence brushed across them as I broke down.

"And the thing I regret most... dammit... I never got to tell him what I've been meaning to for a while now...."

"I never got to tell him... I love you..."

I walked to Jaide and knelt to him, taking his hand, and grasped it with desperation.

Emillia took a step forward to me.

"Letonin, if that's the case....." Emillia starts. "At least keep the memory that we're your friends... That we have been for a long time... Forget about what we are of course... And remember the things you used to with them that didn't involve anything supernatural..."

"Oh, Death, can you also make him my gay best friend?" She added.

"Of course." He complied.

"Awesome."