FAKE

PART III: ANDREW

VII: cheat

I wake up with an ache on my left side. It feels like I've repeatedly hit it over and over and I've probably have. I wouldn't be surprised. I was anxious all night until I took that medicine. After that, it was a complete black out until I just woke up. Of course I'm late to school but that doesn't fucking matter. I check my phone and I freeze. A text from the blocked number. It's another video and every inch of my body starts buzzing with fear. My bones start rattling in their place and my head goes haywire with thoughts. I don't click the video just yet.

I look at my other texts and there's one simple one from Evelyn. It says, I'm sorry.

My heart starts beating really fast and I put my phone down for a second. I take a really deep breath. After a hot minute, I pick up my phone and click on the video. It's of Andrew's clothes the night when he admitted liking me. The video then zooms out to a woman lifting his shirt and Andrew laughing. My face runs all shades of red and then the camera turns around to reveal Evelyn. She bends over and kisses Andrew, tongue and everything. The video ends. I'm frozen there in place not knowing what to do or say. Was Andrew never going to tell me this? Was Evelyn never going to tell me this? Out of instinct, I dial Evelyn's number and she picks up.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Is all I can say before the tear rushes out of my eyes.

"He didn't tell me about you two that night. I was oblivious to the fact that you two were even seeing each other until the video got posted on your story and you were upset. I asked Andrew about it and he told me that I should keep my mouth shut because it was a mistake."

A mistake. A big fucking mistake. I know that I said I wouldn't be mad at Andrew but if he wasn't going to tell me about this shit then what else is Andrew keeping from me. He didn't tell me about Jason and now he doesn't tell me about Evelyn. I'm not going to stand through this to probably see him with Ashley.

I tell Evelyn that I will call her later and dial Andrew's number. He picks up on the first ring.

"How fucking dare you? Were you never going to tell me? How could you? Are we even real?" All those questions furiously spill out of my mouth and Andrew hesitates before answering them.

"Jane, I was drunk. I don't know what got into me. But it won't happen again. I promise," Andrew says, crying.

I can't take the pain, I slam my phone hard on the bed and and hang up on Andrew. I feel the pain slip out of my brain through my whole body until I actually feel physical suffocating pain. Andrew starts to dial again and again but I'm over it. I play our relationship over and over.

I feel betrayed. Andrew could've simply told me about it but there's something else behind that video. I'm most certain that he didn't do whatever he did with Evelyn just once. For some odd reason, I don't feel mad at Evelyn. Andrew should've fucking known. He was conquering my heart and now I don't even know if we were ever real. Are we even real right now?

Ashley wanted to end our relationship and she got her wish. This tears me apart but it has to be done. This is isn't the first time since we've been dating that a video of him has surfaced. It's the second. How many more will leak? How many more can I take?

I call him back and, in drowning tears, I tell him what I feel.

"Andrew, I'm sorry, but, for now, we're over. Maybe I'll forgive you at some point. But right now I can't."

Andrew starts crying into the phone and I can't handle it. I have to hang up. These past three months have mean shit to him I guess. Was anything real? I feel like utter crap for believing in Andrew. He was such a sweet guy but now he's dead to me. I feel like my heart is being torn in pieces by him. He has ripped it out with his barehands and now he's tearing it right in front of me.

I grab my phone and scroll through my contacts and finally found Jason. I know I'm not supposed to do with it but I'm so hurt. I can't text Evelyn. Not like this.

You got what you wanted, I type out and send to Jason. He finally got what he wanted and now he gets to be happy for seeing me be unhappy. I bet he gets a kick out of that.

Jason responds with ":(" and I don't respond to that. What a fake ass, just like Ashely and Andrew. I've lost three of the closest people in my life because of shitty reasons. Can I ever find true friends? Why is that so hard to find nowadays. I just want my normal life back when it wasn't all this drama. It has all happened so quickly. It seems like people need you, get a year out of your life, and then they get bored of you afterwards. I feel so used and pathetic for believing in these people. Especially Andrew, I wanted to give him everything. I wanted to give him the entire world. I wanted him to be mine forever. Now all of that, all of those dreams with him and me thinking about him, that was all a waste of time. I wish my life wasn't like this.

What's life going to be like without Andrew now?