My Poems

Clarity

See, 

My best friend left me, At the start it killed me because she could walk away from all my problems. 

But then after a while I realised. 

Her model got the upgrade before I did, She had levelled up before me like on the games we would play as children. 

it fucking hurt. And if I'm honest it still does. But I can not let her stop me. 

I have thought of nothing else but her. 

If she's okay, if shes happy... 

And what's been hurting me is that she has not given me a single thought. 

And with knowing this I tried to convince my self that I have forgiven her. but, I haven't forgiven her for packing up and leaving me while I was still trying to make sense of my self. 

I can not forgive her for walking away from me while I was at my worst, Because since she left it's gotten worse. 

But what I have realised. Is I have people, she wasn't the only one. 

So why do I bother? when she doesn't even care. 

Pain will make me and brake me. But I refuse to let her control that anymore.