Come back

Chapter 1

Hiroki's P.O.V.

I was running through a forest, my mind racing as I knew that I had to arrive on time. On time for what? I didn't know. I only knew that if I didn't arrive quick enough it would be too late. I arrived to a door, I couldn't see the house it belonged to, and I rushed in, completely out of breath. That's when I started falling.

"Hiroki, love, wake up, it's okay, it was just a dream."

Shania's voice above my head woke me up and I stared at her with wide eyes, my mind racing, my heart beating really fast. I stared at her without really seeing her, I just knew that she was there. As she had been every night ever since.... I closed my eyes, not wanting to think about it. I felt a hand on my chest, pressing down.

"It's okay, take deep breaths. Everything's okay, I'm here now," she seemed to hesitate before asking, "can I hold you?"

I nodded and she immediately took me in her arms, holding me tight, but gently, against her. She whispered reassuring words in my ear, letting me know how much she loved me and that I wasn't alone. But those words didn't make sense, she was gone, and I needed her. I needed to her laughter one more time, to see her bright smile when she managed to forget about everything, to hear her call Emilie "mommy".

Mommy.

That was a word I hadn't said in a long time. I hadn't been able to bring myself to say that word ever since I had learnt about her death. It reminded me too much of her. I knew that it hurt and worried Shania that I wouldn't say it anymore, that I also didn't say "I love you" anymore, that I didn't like being touched too much. I really was messed up now, and I didn't know how to solve this problem, how to solve myself. All that I had done until now was try not to think too much, try to ignore how I felt and the nightmares and the thoughts and live on like I had done before. But I couldn't do that completely. I had lost my best friend because of some man's stupid wish and because of her sister. At least they were paying for it. At least they were in prison for it. I couldn't be happier about that. That was the only thing in all this that made me happy. That they were finally paying.

I was brought of my thoughts by Shania letting me go and holding me so she could look me in the eyes without problems. I diverted my gaze after a while, not being able to stand the sadness and broken look in her eyes. I knew that I had caused part of those feelings, that I wasn't making things easier for her. But I didn't know what to do, how to help her, I could barely deal with myself. I had to reassure her though, even if it meant lying.

That was why I forced a smile and looked at her, forcing other feelings into my eyes. "I'm fine now, don't worry. It was just a bad dream. Go back to sleep."

She didn't seem too convinced about that but thankfully she just nodded and stood up, going to her own room.

Room that didn't exist before.

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So, here's the first chapter of this book! I'm sorry it's so short, but I hope you still enjoyed it.

Have a good day/night/evening!💖