More than just Friends? (A Tyler Ward and Alex G fanfinc)

Chapter 19: Secrets

~ Alex ~ 

It is finally winter break, and that means Christmas is coming! I love Christmas, it is my favorite holiday! 

Part of me wonders if I should get a gift for Tyler, with all the tension between him and I for the past month. But, I decide to get one for him anyways, because he has done so much for me since I met him at the start of last summer. 

It’s December 20th, and that means I have 5 days to get presents for people. 

Today, my family and I get a tree, and decorate it after dinner, while blasting Christmas music.  

Heres the thing. I really wanted to sing my heart out with the music, but I just couldn’t...I am still scared out of mind to sing in front of anyone accept for Tyler. I haven’t even sang for my own boyfriend. Something is wrong with me. 

While we decorate the tree, I either hum or quietly sing the songs, but my sister caught on to what I was doing.  

“ Alex you ok?”  

“ Ya why?” 

 “ You’re not in the spirt of Christmas! Common, sing with us!” 

 “ I-I’m good.” 

 “ Alex common!” 

 “ Jackie stop.” 

 I turn to face the tree and put an ornament on a branch. 

 “ Alex what has gotten into you lately? You just aren’t yourself.” my mom says. 

 “ Mom I’m fine ok?” 

 I’m not fine. I have Tyler on one hand, and me not being able to sing with my own family. I feel like I can’t do this right now. 

 I set an ornament down and run upstairs and slam my down, and lay on my bed. I can’t believe this. It’s Christmas time. I should be happy? But guess what? I’m not. 

I sigh, and start to hear my mom yelling at me, telling me to come back down, but I ignore her. 

 She comes up moments later. 

 “ Alex what’s wrong?” 

“ Nothing.” 

“ Oh really?” she says, with her arms crossed. 

“ Mom I am fine ok?” I say, feeling tears start to form in my eyes. 

 “ Are you sure we can’t talk about what’s going on?” 

 “ I would, but I can’t...” 

 “ What do you mean you can’t? Is there something you aren’t telling me? Alex you can always tell me anything, that’s what I am here for.” 

 “ I know, but I just... Can’t.” 

 “ Ok. Well if there comes I time where you are able to tell me, I will be there to hear it all, ok?”

 “ Ok. Thanks Mom.” 

 “ You’re welcome.” she says, smiling. “ I’ll be downstairs, finishing up the tree. If you want to finish it up with us, let me know.” 

 “ OK.” 

 I watch her close the door, and as soon as it closes, I let a few tears roll down my cheeks. 

 This sucks. 

 I am hiding something from my Mom. Actually two things. 

 One thing is the tension between Tyler and I. 

 The other, the bigger one, is the whole singing and YouTube thing. And what makes that one even bigger, is that I haven’t even told her, my dad, or my sister that I have been posting videos on YouTube of my singing. 

 If they find out, who knows what will happen.... 

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 A couple days later, I go out shopping at the mall to get gifts for my family, my boyfriend, and Tyler. 

 I just finished shopping, and I decide to grab some lunch. 

 I wait in line, and finally get my food and look for a place to sit at the food court. 

 I scan the rows of tables and chairs and guess who I lay my eyes on? 

 Tyler. 

 I kinda had to go so hi, so I walk over to him, and sit down with my stuff. 

 “ Hi Alex. Funny seeing you here.”

 “ Haha ya...” 

 “ So..” 

 “ It’s almost Christmas.” I say, trying to stop this awkwardness.  

 “ Ya. You excited?”

 “ Yep. I also just got gifts for everyone.” 

 “ Cool.” 

I decide to eat with him, because I thought it would be weird to get up and sit and eat somewhere else. 

 When we finish eating, we both get up, and walk to our cars. 

 “ Hey I was thinking, we should do a Christmas collab together! Or are you going to blow this one off too?” 

 “ Tyler! Stop it! That sounds really fun, and Dylan is leaving tomorrow for a Christmas vacation anyways, so it will work.”  

“ Ok.” he says, smiling. 

“ Text me the details later?” I say, putting my stuff in the trunk of my car, and then closing it.  

“ Sure.” he says, smiling, as he walks down the parking lot to his car.