『 the sound of you and i 』 ➤ the first "sounds" book

❀ Ⅰ ｐ．１ ∞ 𝚊𝚚𝚞𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚎 ❀

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From here on, unless stated different, is from Ash's POV. Hope you enjoy!!

Two years earlier...

I wake up, my eyes straining from the light pouring through my window. Oh, why the heck did I place my bed right next to my window? That's really irritating. I need to change that. I sigh, laying in my pink bedclothes for a moment or two, just contemplating life and screaming internally for the colour scheme my mother had picked.

What are we doing here? Why does life hate us? Are humans really what we think we are? Would we be aliens to aliens? To aliens, are they themselves humans?

I groan, putting a hand on my forehead. I cannot be assed with this. And by this, I mean life. Just living makes me tired nowadays. I'd rather just... exist. But then, existing and not living just makes me depressed. There are so many thing in the world I wish I could change.

It's been seven months since I realised I was transgender. And so far, I've not told a soul. I think the process is going to be slow and painful. And by painful, I mean that I'm going to be very impatient and most likely punch myself multiple times in the face. I don't think people understand how hard it is to actually come out to someone. I've found at least three hundred and nineteen opportunities to come out to my best friend, who I know would accept me, but every single time I died inside. I just couldn't. I. Just. Couldn't. 

I groan again. It's a habit I've taken a liking to. It releases stress. Well, that's my excuse for doing it anyways. Viola says she hates it, and Josh agrees with her.

Viola is my sister. She's basically my twin, we look super alike, apart from me having green eyes and her having blue. But we can't be twins, purely because she's three years older than me. We're really, really close which is comforting, but even she doesn't know yet. I always wonder how I'm going to tell her. She's not heavy religious like our mum, so I think she'd be alright with it. And also, she's gay. 

So, like, religion down the drain.

Mum doesn't know about her either. I've decided that once she tells her, I will too. I have a feeling that won't be until we've both moved out.

Joshua is my best friend, we've known each other since diapers. Literally, we were born next to each other. My mum, Heather, and his mum, Hannah (she's so nice), had us next to each other. They're best friends too, but Hannah is an atheist, which is the only thing my mum doesn't like about her.

Joshua and I grew up together, and we were iffy about each other at first (well more like he was iffy with me because I was a girl (ew gender roles)), but by five we were besties, and we haven't been anything else since. He has the most adorable, fluffy, brown hair, and I'd be lying if I said he wasn't attractive, but mainly because I have a thing for adorable people. But, I'd never date him. Never, ever, ever. We're way too close for that. He has the most beautiful blue eyes too, almost identical to my sisters. He's pretty tall, but just a couple inches more than me. He's also really stupid about love, he never notices the girls fawning over him. Well, that and he's gay too.

For some crazy reason, his family moved to L.A with us about six years ago, too. It was really weird. It's like our families are connected or something. He freaks me out by pretending we are. Not cool, Josh. Not. Cool.

Everyone seems to be gay nowadays. I'm not complaining, because gay people are usually nicer than straight people (no offence to every straight friend I have), but it just seems to be a trend. It annoys me, really. Why can't pansexuality be a trend instead? Homosexuality is too awesome to be a trend, alright?! Well, pansexuality is pretty cool too.