『 the sound of you and i 』 ➤ the first "sounds" book

✧ Ⅶ ｐ．３ ∞ 𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚕𝚍 ✧

I stare at Adam and he stares at me.

"What do you mean?" I squeak, I can almost feel rage bubbling inside of me. "He's my Harley!"

He bites his lip. "Not according to him. I think you're dead to him."

"Well, fuck him then."

"Grace," he mumbles but I look away from him. He tries to take my wrist but I swerve away from him, ignoring him as I go into the pizza place.

I look around and gulp. Josh is sitting with the other guy who's name I finally remember (it's Dylan) and a bunch of other guys; he seems to be having the time of his life. I notice a few other people I know but my eyes immeditely lock onto someone insanely familiar.

Adam rushes in and sighs when he realises I've noticed who's there.

"I was trying to tell you," he whispered to me. "I was trying to tell you that Harley's here."

~

I can't take my eyes off of him.

Adam's trying to coax me into eating some pizza and Josh is on the other side of me, still flirting with Dylan, and I'm sitting there with my eyes locked on my best friend. Well, I'm not his best friend anymore, but he's still mine.

"He could've died and I wouldn't know," I gulp and Adam sighs.

"He doesn't want to talk to you, it's not a big deal, he'll get over it."

I keep watching him and notice Harvey go over. I raise my eyebrows when he sits next to my best friend and puts his hand on his waist. I let out a small cough when Harley turns around to look at him, smiles, and then connects their lips. Harvey then pulls my best friend on his lap and they start making out.

"The fuck?!" I spit and Adam sighs. I think he's a bit fed up of me but I can't seem to stop.

"Harvey and Harley started dating a few days ago."

"I barely remembered Harvey even existed a few days ago."

"Well Harley says he's been into him for ages, he just didn't know if he was gay."

"Harvey's gay?"

"Yeah."

"Well, fuck."

"Dylan's bi, they're not out yet."

"Well, Harvey seems to be out now."

"That's the way he wanted to come out. With Harley."

I close my eyes and Adam wraps an arm around me. I shake him off again when I feel the anger start building up.

"Did you know?" I ask, staring daggers at him.

"Know what?"

"Don't act fucking dumb with me. Did you know that Harley doesn't like me? Why didn't you tell me he hated me?"

"I did know, I just-"

"You asshole!" I raise my voice a little. "Are you only friends with me so you can spy on me for him?"

"What? No!"

"Don't lie to me!"

"Grace! Stop, you're acting like an idiot!"

"I bet you think that!" I'm yelling now and we've got a bit of attention. I want to stop, I'm not mad at him. "I bet you think I'm fucking stupid!"

"I'd never think you're stupid," he mumbles and sympathy flashes through my eyes before my unexpected rage comes back.

"Yeah, right."

He suddenly sighs and rolls his eyes, standing up. "I don't need to put up with this."

I stand up with him and lean towards him, trying to act a bit tougher. It's hard when you're arguing with a footballer.

"Oh, yeah, I'm just another thing you have to put up with, huh?!"

"Grace, stop putting words in my mouth-"

"'I'll put something in your mouth, and it won't be words!"

"Grace!"

"Don't fucking call me that! Don't fucking talk to me. You don't know me!"

"I want to know you-"

"No you don't, you asshole! Get the fuck away from me!"

"You don't mean that."

"You're so annoying! Can't you get a hint? You're nothing but a little puppet for him! He'll use you and then throw you away!"

I catch a glance at Harley and he's watching us, so is Harvey. I get a small adrenaline boost from it, especially when Josh stands up to try and intercept. He tugs on my arm and as a reflex, I throw a punch at him and I catch him right on the shoulder. He yells although even I know it didn't hurt, he just looks at me like it did.

A few yells echo about the place, some agreeing with me (even though they have no idea what we're talking about), but most agreeing with Adam. I can tell I'm outnumbered.

I stare at Adam and he stares back at me with these puppy eyes. I feel so bad but I can't seem to stop myself.

"I hate you," I spit and he flinches a little like I slapped him.

"No you don't, you're just angry. Not at me..." he mumbles but I can tell he's uncertain.

I want to stop. I want to tell him I'm just kidding and everyone will laugh and we'll go back to talking and I'll pretend Harley isn't there but I catch another glance at him and he's frowning. I get a kick out of it.

Before I know it, I'm storming over to Harley and he's standing up to face me. He's short, but so am I. I'm just a little taller than him. It's almost comedic when Harvey stands up because he's so much taller. Harley waves him off and he sits back down.

"You're pathetic," I spit to him. "This entire thing is pathetic."

"I'm no where near as pathetic as you." There's something in his voice. He thinks he's above everyone else, he thinks he runs the place. This isn't the Harley I know. "You're taking out your anger on other people. You look obsessed with me."

"Why are you doing this? We had one tiny fight, you're literally being so over dramatic."

Harley laughs. He fucking laughs. "It's not just this. You're so... aggravating. I'm fed up with you. You're so petty and I don't want you in my life anymore."

"Well, it seems you've already achieved this. I got told I'm dead to you." I glance behind me to Adam and he's almost shaking. He looks so hurt and I look back to Harley and he's smiling.

"Adam's sweet. He chilled it down a bit, I said way more than that." He leans in close to me. "He likes me more than you, he always will," he whispers and I growl, shoving him. He yells and falls but Harvey catches him, giving me a look of disgust.

"I'm so fucking done with you!" I scream, pulling the finger at him before storming out of the restaurant, Josh hot on my tail.

~

The moment I'm far enough away from the place, my body stops working. I collapse to my knees and start crying, screaming and rocking back and forward. Josh launches at me, kneeling next to me and holding me in his arms. He tells me everything will be okay and I just cry and yell and sob and I can't control myself anymore. Everything is falling apart underneath my feet and I can't handle not having Harley by my side.

"I want him," I sob and Josh just nods, kissing my head.

"I know, but you can't have him."

And my heart is broken. I've lost my best friend.

What the hell am I meant to do now?