One more day until the concert. The tickets are sold out and everything is organized. But something's been off with Jullian for the past following days. His recording is today for his finaly voicing in the concert. He just wears a jersey shot, ambercrombie shirt and a cap which he wore it in a backward style.
" You okay?" I asked. He was sitting in the speaker with his phone in his hand again, playing some games I guess.
" Yeah why?" he stops playing and looked at me.
"Nothing it's just that um...... So when's Wen going to come in?" Changing the topic I smiled. Wen is also Jullian's mentor but he has his personal tarinor too but is in LA.
" I don't know few minutes from now I think she'll be around" He took a glance on me and returned his attention to his phone. He seems off though, what's up with him? "Do you have a practice right now?" He asks
I look up "What? Umm, no later I'll go back to school cause I have to get my final exam"
"Ohh I'll come with you then"
"Actually Kath asked me to come with her" I pointed out. Honestly Kath doesn't know so that means I have to text her after this awfully weird conversation.
"Samantha!" someone called my name, I looked back. She was the costume designer. I guess I'll have some fitting then.
JULLIAN's P.O.V
Samantha was called by the costume designer. I paced my phone down and looked from the screen door beside the room. Mom is sitting on the couch with her phone in her ears again(Like she doesn't! it's her signature post!) everyday she talks to someone I do not even know.
When the phone ended she peeked out of the window and I tilted my head so that she won't catch me looking at her. And again, the controlling starts, I don't blame her though. I remembered everything my mom has said to me.
"Felix come to my room please" Mom opened the door and she led me inside. " So you and Samantha is a thing now?" Her eyes widen. But it's like she's shock, it's they eyes that they're upset and can't beileve you can do that to them.
"Mom another one?" I sighed. Not this again, I was thinking. I'm 19 and can absolutely handle my personal life.
" I did everything for You Ian!" She said at the same time she let out a deep sigh. "It's your choice, I'm not happy" Well she called me Ian, for how many years she haven't even mentioned my name.
" But mom, if I follow you then I'll be the one who's unhappy. Mom please Samantha won't ruin anything. Mom don't ruin this"
"Ruin this! Everything will fall apart if you keep on dating her. Atleast date someone who is in your level!" Ouch
She is in my level, When I'm with her all I feel that I'm a normal person and I am inlove with her. "This is disappointing. Your throwiing your career for this girl. I pity myself as well, how could I let my son grow up blind?" She pouted like she was about to cry. And that's the hardest thing, is to see you mother cry.
1, 2, 3 okay then , once again I'm going to give in " Until when?" I asked closing my eyes. I can't believe I'll be doing this again, but if this makes my mom happy then I should.......
My mom looked at me. She felt sorry as well, I can see it in her eyes. "Until your concert. And don't quit it will help you in the future" She said. I nodded, I have nothing to say anymore. Just like that everything is like deja vu. How mom forced me to seperate my girlfriend few years back.
"You know this is for you right?" She frowned "I'm sorry son" Just like that. She went back to her normal self. Ache inside me piles up.
It was fast, honest and easy. But she is my mother, but I am 19. Samantha came to view
"Jullian! Kath called me! she said that we better get going! " She smiled. She ran over to me where I was sitting in the speakers. I acted casually as she kissed my cheek and ran away as she was trying to wear the other strap of her bag.
I watche her back became so tiny in my view. I closed my eyes as I felt heavy emotions inside my chest. 'I've got to let her go' my mind says.'Hold on and fight for her' my heart says. Still closing my eyes I felt warm tears sorung out and it landed in my cheeks.
I opened my eyes and took my guitar. "I'll be in the car!" I called out. I went out of the Arena, since Wen isn't her yet I'd like to spend my time in my car. I opened the trunk and placed my guitar there. I glided in the driver seat and sat there.
I touched the mode in the radio set and the first thing I heard was 'Let her go' by the passenger
" What the hell? this is bullshit!" I turned the music to another station. 'You and I' played by the One direction. Well this lyrics of this boyband isn't so bad atleast. I leaned on the passenger back rest. I couldn't help but another wave of fresh warm tears came falling down my eyes.
I clutched the steering wheel. I hate the idea, I loathe myself why did I agree to this when I know I couldn't do it?!
I felt something on my pocket. My phone vibrating I pulled it out and Samantha's name was on the screen. "Doll?" I asked. Good thing my voice isn't hoarse.
" Hey! umm Kath asked if she could come over after the exam there. could she?"
"Yeah sure"
"OKay! thanks I love you!" She said in the other end of the phone. Here is it again. I couldn't say it "Jullian?"
"I love you too" I pursed my lips into a thin line as tears keeps on flowing down my cheek.
Author's note:
Sorry for the late update! all song credits os for the one's who made it or sang it! Well know you've read how Jullian is not willing to let Sam go but for the will of her mother she will. Let's see what's going to happen next! :) thanks for reading and sorry for the errors, i haven't edited it yet sooooo.
-elle
