Why Change? (Straight furry story)

12. After The Inital Fall

When I woke up, I was in Hobart, then I saw my parents, but, instead of looks of love, they had looks of fear, and everyone had the same expression, I heard a large cracking sound which continued for three long minutes. When it stopped I looked down and I saw a gun, it started to rain, and I saw bodies pooling blood at my feet, steam rose off my gun as the silent afternoon filled with clouds. I dropped my gun and ran to my parents, my mother was holding my father, and she was breathing, she said "why...? why...? Change...? she turned paler by the second, "why change?" she asked before ceasing to breathe. I hugged my mother and father, but they were cold. I stood up, walked to the kitchen and took the butchers knife. I walked outside and slit my wrists, ankles and feet, before wiping the blood off, I saw my reflection in the knife, and it said to me, "you know what to do" I wiped the blood off with my dark sleeve, my reflection nodded and I held the knife to my throat and said "change this" I ran the knife through the deepening notch in my neck. The rain washed my tail out and I was finally like a wolf, my clothes melted away and my ID fell out, Carl? who was this 'Carl'? I was no longer in control of my body when I walked around on all fours, I revisited places I had been in my life, but when I got to the point in my life where I met Vexera for the first time, I cried out "Why?! why is this happening?!" suddenly I felt huge jolts through my chest, I saw my tail come back, my scars heal, I was dragged back to Hobart where I saw everything, they had replaced replaced my throat with an artificial tube and fake skin was being put over the open wound to hold my neck together, and I saw an orange fox with a defibillator, "CLEAR" she shouted and pushed the paddles on my lifeless chest. I was alive, once again, but who would do this? I opened my eyes and saw the fox hugging me, "please, please, please come back" said a familliar voice, I looked at her and she was beautiful, I felt my heart make a huge push and she saw it, "you're alive!" she said and said "I'm sorry, I am so sorry" I tried to talk but nothing came out. "your voice was damaged in order to save your life. I hope you don't mind" she said, meaning it. She bent over to kiss me, but before she did, I felt a warm liquid run all over my hand, she said to me "why?..." I looked at what she was talking about, I had a scapel and she was bleeding out, I tried to speak but I couldn't, so I kissed her, and plunged the scapel into my stomach. I woke up in cold sweat.