MIXED EMOTIONS

26. ONCE A CHEATER, ALWAYS A CHEATER

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I could barely get out of bed the next morning. I was so hoping that I had woken up from a bad dream. That what happened yesterday didn't really happen. But it did. Thank God there was no practice today. I didn't feel like going anywhere. I didn't feel like doing anything. And I didn't. For the rest of the day I stayed in my room all day watching T.V. I even cleaned around the house and made sure everything was straight. I tried keeping myself busy around the house so I wouldn't have to think about my heartache.

How could Kristian do that? He didn't love me. Because if he did, he wouldn't have embarrassed and hurt me like that. I thought I could actually have a relationship with him one day. I thought we could have been a pretty good couple. He's always been there for me. During my parents' divorce, when my mom and I would get into arguments, etc.

He always managed to make me laugh or smile. Even when I was sad or angry. But this time, he managed to make me cry and cry. The tears kept coming and coming and I couldn't stop them.

I was too depressed to eat this morning and skipped breakfast. I was starving now, so I ordered a large pizza and wings.

While I was waiting for the pizza I checked my phone to see if I got any texts or missed calls. I had one from Camille, Six from my dad that I wont be answering any time soon. One text from my mom saying she'll be home soon. None from Krisitan or Jayden, not that I was expecting any texts or calls from them.

Since Kristian was out of the question, Jayden was still my boyfriend and I still needed to apologize and make things right between us.

After I ate, I showered and got dressed. I wore a pair of yoga pants, a white T-shirt. I put my hair in a messy bun on top of head and left.

All the way to Jayden's house, I kept rehearsing what I would say for him to forgive me. So we can get back on track.

I parked in his driveway. His car was in the driveway also, so I assumed he was home. I knocked on the door, no one answered. I knocked again. Still no one. I called Jayden, he didn't pick up.

Of course.

I texted him to open the door, he still didn't answer. I was about to leave but I figured I should try again. Maybe he was sleeping. I knocked and knocked and no one came to the door. I thought about twisting the knob to see if the door was locked but I thought against it.

Maybe he was dying in there and his phone died? I twisted the knob and the door opened. Wow. It was that easy? I thought. He must've left the door open.

I walked in. The lights were turned on. I made my way upstairs. I heard voices. One of them definitely Jayden's. The other one was a female. A female? Why would Jayden have a female in his room?

I got closer to the door. I heard moaning and groaning. The voices were muffled. The moans got louder and I got angrier. Was he laid up with hoe? I was a virgin and Jayden respected that. He knew I wasn't ready to be sexually active yet. I was saving myself for him... Maybe Kristian if everything wasn't so messed up.

I twisting the knob, it was locked. Oh, so now he wants to lock doors?, I thought.

I knocked and knocked. The female voice said, "Is that your dad?"

Then I heard Jayden say, "He's not suppose to be home right now."

"Go see what he wants." The female voice said. The more she talked, the clearly the voice seemed to get. I knew this person. I recognized her voice. I just coulldn't put my finger on it. Who could it be?

"Who is it?" Jayden asked before opening the door. I didn't answer. If I did, he was going to try to cover up whatever he was doing.

He asked again, I still didn't answer. He finally opened the door and his eyes widened when he saw me.

"W-What are you doing here?" He stammered. I tried pushing past him, so I could see who the mystery female was.. He would let me. He kept blocking my way. I heard shuffling inside the room. I had to see who it was.

"You have a female up in here, Jayden?" I yelled trying to get passed him.

"No!" He yelled. "Calm down." I got tired of him blocking my way so I slapped him. Hard. Harder than my father did me. He stumbled back and continued to look at me wide-eyed.

I stepped into the room. I looked around and saw an open condom wrapper on the floor. I continued to scan the room.

And there she was standing int he back of the room, putting her clothes back on trying to cover up. I was boiling, ready to attack.

I charged up to Lexi. I started punching and hitting her. All I saw was red. I was fuming.

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I drove home in a daze. I was crying uncontrollably and my tears cause my vision to become a blur, so I pulled over. The tears continued to cascade down my flushed cheeks. How could they? Why? Lexi was supposed to my best friend. No wonder she's been so busy. Busy with my boyfriend.

Why couldn't she find her own man? Why did she have to go hoe-ing around with mine? She lost her virginity to MY boyfriend? She's not loyal. I could never see myself ever talking to her again or being in her presence.

Her and Jayden both disgust me. I feel like going back there and punching her all over again. I felt like I could kill both of them. I was angry and hurt.

Jayden has cheated on me before, but I forgave him for that. I wanted to move on from that. I wanted to believe he wouldn't turn around and do the same thing. But he did. He disrespected our relationship.

I was falling in love with him. I wanted something stronger with him. I listened while he fed me all those bullshit lies. All he was doing was whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

And I believed them, so here I was crying my eyes out because I was too stupid and naive to see that he wasn't serious about me. About us, this relationship.

He didn't love me. He didn't care about me.

Lexi wasn't a true friend, never was. She's sneaky and conniving.

Stealing and sneaking around with your boyfriend... That's what friends are for, right?

Messing around with your "best friend" and lying to your face, making you believe all those stupid lies and is unloyal ... That's what boyfriends are for, right?

Kristian's moved on already.

My dad is building up a new family.

Lexi and Jayden were discovering and trying out new sex positions.

My mother and Charles were on a verge of getting divorced.

And I'm just here. Heart broken, disappointed, overwhelmed and alone.

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