Bad Enough For You (Alex Gaskarth Fan Fiction)

Forget About It

I wake up to a wet, salty pillow. My hair was sticking to my face and I peeled it off and checked the time. I still have three hours until graduation.

                I’m tempted to roll back over and sleep. I just wanna sleep. When I sleep, it all goes away. The kiss, Alex; just everything. I don’t want to think about him. As much as I hate to say it, I still want him. I can’t tell him that, I’m just a game.

                I sigh and roll out of bed. I grab my white dress and some underwear and make my way to the bathroom.

                “Goodmorning, hun!” Mom calls to me. I groan in response to her and close the bathroom door. I undress and start the shower. Before I get in, I get a text from Ashton.

                Meet me outside in an hour. Bring everything you’ll need.

                I try to smile for myself as I jump in the shower. I shave my legs and quickly scrub the rest of my body. Once dressed, I curl my hair loosely and put on my makeup. I finish up and make my way downstairs with my bag over my shoulder that holds everything I’ll need tonight.

                “I’m gonna hang out with Ashton, mom.” I say and head out the door. She wishes me good luck and I wave to him. “Hey,” I say as I get into the passenger side of the car. “Where are we going?” I ask.

                “Just to get some coffee and then you’ll see.” He drives to Starbucks and orders coffee for both of us. I’m not a huge fan of it, but he already paid so I suck it up and drink it. I try my best to hold back a face. We sit in an awkward silence. Every now and then we talk about graduation and about what we like, and as we are about to leave, Alex walks in the door with Jess. Oh, God.

                He sees me and I see anger fill his eyes, and then pain. Jealousy?

                No. He doesn’t care about me. I feel his glare boring through me as Ash lays a hand on my back and leads me out. Ashton catches his glare, he returns it. “What’s his problem?” He asks irritably once we’re in the car and driving away.

                I shrug. I don’t wanna talk about him. About Jess. About Alex in general.

                This is a mess. I wrap my arms around my stomach to hold myself together because I know at any moment I may fall to pieces and nobody can put them back together. If they managed, nothing would even be the same. I’d lose any light I had left in me, I’d lose the light that Alex didn’t take from me. “Here we are,” Ash says and smiles. I fake a smile back, he sees right through it. I know he does, but he says nothing. I’m happy he says nothing.

                We get out of the car. We’re in a field. It’s open and it’s beautiful. He has a picnic set up. I smile at him to assure him. “Thank you.” We sit on the blanket and eat of lunch.

                Soon, it’s time for graduation. He drives us to the school and we say our goodbyes as we head separate ways to get ready. Everything goes by in a flash. Where did high school even go? I feel sick as I take the diploma and force a smile. I’m scared. What’s next? College? I don’t even know what I want out of life yet. Maybe that’s okay, maybe it’s not. To be honest, everything I thought I knew is wrong.

                After graduation is finished, I check my phone. I have a text from Jack saying to stop by at Alex’s because they’re having a party. This time, a real one. Rian had persuaded them to throw a real party this time. I call Ashton and ask if he wants to go. He smiles through the phone and I tell him the address. I decide to ride up with Jack and Rian.