"I can't do this anymore" she said tears streaming down her face "What?" I ask not knowing if I heard it correctly. A sentence that I don't really wanted to hear "I can't do this anymore" She repeated looking at me with those red puffy eyes "No..We can work this out..Just stay, please?" I said with hope In my voice, I was fighting my own tears but before it will fall down I heard the last sentence from her that made my heart shattered into pieces "I'm sorry" and then she was gone...
**Back to the Present**
I chug down my 11th beer as if it was the last thing I would've drink. If you are thinking if I am drunk? Absolutely drunk like super duper. I didn't even know how I end up drinking to many. Ya know I'm just like people who are broken. If you are wondering why I'm still here drinking my ass down? Well because It was a stupid idea to hide her from all of them, You're wondering who? My ex, Allyson brooke hernandez which was the love of my life but therefore it was gone. Y'all will know the reason behind it soon not now but someday.
As I was reaching for my 12th beer someone stop me by holding my hand "that's enough for now" I look to the person who was holding my hand and it was my only bestfriend Dinah jane. I roll my eyes infront of her "and Why is that?" i said with a slurry voice "You know, Jauregui, I'm not gonna fight back anymore Im just gonna take you home" Dinah said still having the grip on my arm "No" i said bluntly "And why is that?" the same question that I ask a while ago was also repeated again. I shrug and try to reach the beer again.She sigh "You know that's not going to help either with the pain" she said. Massaging her temples
"But you know it helps me on trying to forget her" and again a false truth. Even though I drink alot, nothing seems to help I still remember her. Our past, Our talks and our moments together. I just wish that it was easy to say for me that I've move on but it only turns out into a lie. I still love her since she was my first love, it breaks my heart to know that she's gone. I clutch the beer on my hand tightly as if it was the only thing I can hold on to.
"Woah there, You need to stop before something happens again like the last time" Dinah said trying to get a hold of me. The last time? Oh yeah I got into a fight last time at another bar that I got kicked out "N~~" before I can protest. She drag me out of the bar and leading me to her BMW 2 Series.
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I sigh, leaning my head on the window as she got in the car. I never thought in my life that this will happen. drinking and partying in clubs at night because I'm just broken . I just needed~~ wait scratch that ~~ wanted my other half back. It's a good thing that it's already summer. Oh by the way if I forgot to tell you that I was a sophomore turning senior this year. I dated ally when we were sophomores about the 2nd week of school that's where we started dating (A/N just act like both of you have the same age) and it's been clearly like 2 months that we've break up. I know, I know we didn't even get to 1 year in our relationship. I fucked up like seriously, no not really but yeah If I wasn't a chicken to tell the world I love her then We wouldn't have br~~
