Lauren's POV
Pain.
Loneliness.
Stress.
Tired.
Depression.
Is all I see in my eyes as I stared on the mirror, I sigh. How did we get so far? How come I did not see it coming? How come we did not know? Does she feels the same? Does she even feel what I feel right now? Does she know that I'm painfully hurt inside? Or are we just the same?
No one also knew obviously. No one can tell if their life was all a joke or not. No one can tell when it will happen. It just happens. No sign, No traces, Nothing. Just nothing.....
My throat hurts as my eyes started to water again. I inhaled deeply before releasing a shaky breath. I've never been so miserable in my life. How come I've come into this position where I would just cry for a single girl? I Mean, there's alot of girls out there that I can have.
But No
I only have my eyes for that girl, that petite brunette who stole my heart. There's something about her that I love and I don't know what. You see, I was a player before but not until ally had come, I've changed since she appeared in my life. I only wanted~~ no~~ needed her in my life. I look at myself at the mirror, running my fingers on my hair.
I grip on the both ends of the sink, trying to release my anger by it. I gave up since I don't have energy left. I stride my way back to the room and plop down on the bed. I stared blankly on the wall, thinking of the things that will happen this year. Nah, Don't give a fuck about it jauregui, Everything will go smoothly as like last year.... Or maybe not?
Well I dont fucking know, I'm not a fortune teller or some shit like that. I'm just a rebellious human after all, A rebellious human who should do one nightstands rather a relationship. If you would ask me what life is? Well, Life is a completely fucked up thing. You'de never know if you have Done something wrong or right not until that person judges you. Yeah, They'll remember your mistakes rather the good things you did.
I just became a rebel since something terrible happened to me. Hell no, I aint talking about that 'something' which if you accuse is my ex. That's not a real reason thought, It was a thing happened when I was young... But lets stop it from there and you though im letting somebody in easily? hell no, I'm not like that.
My phone buzz for the 6th time. Oh well, Here we go Again with the spamming of the Queen Dinah Jane. I thought, grabbing my phone from the night stand. Looking the messages that my friend had send for the past minutes
QueenD👑: Yow, Where are u?
QueenD👑: Brooo I need ya
QueenD👑: Dudeeee I'm fucking getting worried...
QueenD👑: istg if you don't answer this ralph I'm going to bust right in yo fkng house.
QueenD👑: I'll Start counting bish
QueenD👑: 1
QueenD👑: 2
Well this human being can't be serious right? Might as well answer it rather she ruining my personal space.
Me: Im Fine DJ
QueenD👑: It's QueenD to you missy
I chuckled at her sassiness. She never change since the first time we met which is a child. I am really used to it.
Me: Yeah, yeah.
