She's Not Lily (Harry Potter/ Severus Snape fan fic)

Ch. 7 Did I just....

(Lily's POV)

Here I am sitting in the common room reading up on potions when Harry, Ron, and Mione come in the room talking about where to hold the training for Dumbledor's Army. I have been trying to help but all these studies Severus is making me do is keeping me busy. I don't complain about it though, I like spending time with him and I love potions so it's enjoyable. I have learned a lot more techniques that I never even realized would benefit me.

"Working on potions again?" Harry asked while sitting down next to me.

I just nodded my head while reading the rest of the book before I have to go to Severus's office. I don't spare the time to talk because I feel like if I lose track of where I am I'll slip behind. They laughed at me for being so focused, Harry leaned down and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.

I guess I forgot to mention, Harry and I are going steady. He asked me to be his official girlfriend during a Hogsmeade trip, it was romantic and he was just so sweet I couldn't say no. But the thing that has been eating me up about saying yes is that I'm falling for Severus, hard. Which I know is absolutely horrible to say but maybe that's why I am pushing so hard to make this work between Harry and me. At least that is not frowned upon. If someone sees me kissing Harry no one would bat an eye, well everyone besides Umbridge. If people see me snogging Severus. Well, I don't think it would go over well.

"Lily, Earth to Lily. " I hear Mione say while waving a hand in front of my face.

"Huh?" I ask while scrunching my nose up in confusion.

"Bloody hell, Snape has her working too hard, what did he do to you, Lily. " Ron said.

Oh, thank you Ron for your lovely opinions as always. Doesn't really speak up unless he has something, stupid, rude, or irrelevant to say. He has surpassed Fred in becoming my least favorite Weasley.

"Sorry guys it's just this is really important to me," I tell them while shutting my book. "Potions is something I want to pursue out of school and the fact that next year is my last year I want to gather all the knowledge I can."

"It's okay we understand," Harry tells me while Mione nods her head.

We sat there talking about where we are going to hold the training until Neville ran in telling us that he found a perfect place. I was going to go with them but then I realized I needed to be in Severus's office. I haven't been late since I started my apprenticeship so I really don't feel like starting now.

I quickly made my way down to his office in the dungeon. I got stopped on the way by Peeves trying to steal my books which in turn made me late.

When I arrived I saw Severus at his desk looking impatiently at a book. I quietly made my way to the seat I use when I come to his office. Maybe he's not that upset I am late. I mean it's only a couple of minutes. If I just ignore it maybe it won't be mentioned.

"Your late Ms. Duchannes," he tells me in his blank monotone voice.

Yeah, that worked out in my favor.

I wish he wasn't always in such a sour mood. He started to act different around me when he found out Harry and I started dating. Everyone has been saying he's been acting worse than before during class which is scary to see how he acted before because he is absolutely mean to everyone in potions, mostly Harry. He has also been very difficult to work with, that's why he's been keeping me busy. Always assigns me studies and projects like he is purposely trying to keep me busy so I can't spend time with Harry. But that is a ridiculous thought.

"I am terribly sorry Severus, it won't happen again. " I tell him while getting to work.

If ignoring the situation didn't work, maybe just owning up to my mistake and going straight to work will help put out the fire in his attitude.

"Well maybe if you started focusing on your work instead of that Potter. " He grumbled while getting up to grab something from his bookshelf.

Here we go again. Me failing at every idea that I would think would succeed and now I get to deal with Sev being grumpy about Harry.

"For your information Severus, I was stopped in the corridors by peeves, not with Harry." I snarled back at him.

Severus was merely surprised at my outburst. You see, I am the only student who stands up to him. As much as he tries to intimidate me I don't let him. He doesn't scare me, and he acts strong but I think deep down he can be a nice person. I just wish he could see that Harry is a nice person too.

"Why is it that you have to prove me wrong Lily," Severus says with a low chuckle I barely heard.

"It just happens to be one of my favorite things to do," I tell him with a sly smirk.

"Well, what are your other favorite things to do?" He questions me.

"Are you actually trying to get to know me Sev?" I question him.

It's like a whole 360 from moments before. He now wants to be civil.

His black eyes looked right into my bright green ones. I stood up from my chair and made my way to sit on his desk.

"Well I like potions, as you may know, I like to read, um, I love to look in eyes-"

Did I just......

Oh, Merlin I just told him I like to look into his eyes. Oh wow... I look up to meet his beautiful eyes. It had a hint of confusion and lust? No not lust it can't be this infatuation I have for him is definitely one-sided and I have been thinking about it so much that my mind is playing tricks that he actually has feelings for me too. Right?

We just sat there staring into each other's eyes. No one spoke. The only sound that could be heard was from a cauldron in the room that seemed to be brewing a potion. He slowly reached his hand up to my face. I feel a lump get stuck in my throat as the nerves are racing through my body. His rough hand pushed a piece of my red hair behind my ear. Is this really happening? Did peeves make me fall and hit my head and I'm asleep in the infirmary?

There is no way this is actually happening.

We slowly leaned in so our foreheads were touching. Our breaths were calm yet sounded staggered at the same time. Being this close to him was exhilarating and calming all at the same time. I was begging for him to pull away or something to break us apart. Something that would put an end to this situation I never thought would actually happen. But of course, something else surprised me when he deiced to break the silence and speak lowly in a hushed voice.

"I have fallen for you Lily Duchannes. "

*NOTES*

CLIFFHANGER!

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