He leaned down and his lips met mine. I could feel his hand stroke my cheek, his chapped lips felt like heaven on my lips. I felt fireworks, knowing how cheesy that sounds but it was true. This kiss was sending electricity through my body. The kiss was nothing like the ones I shared with Harry it was so much more than that.
"I am so sorry Ms. Duchannes," Severus said while pulling back from our kiss.
"There is nothing to be sorry about Severus, I rather enjoyed that," I told him with a sly smirk.
What has gotten into me?!
He smiled back at me before leaning down to kiss me again. I can't believe I am snogging with my professor in his classroom. Oh, Merlin's beard I am snogging my Professor. This is so wrong, so wrong, but the thing is, I don't want to be right.
We heard someone clear their throat and we jumped apart. Leaving me to fall on my bum. I looked up to see it was Professor Dumbledore, I could feel my face heat up from embarrassment. My heart started to race in a panic about being expelled for snogging my potions professor. I could see a slight smile on his face while Severus had a nervous yet calming look.
It's time I best get on my way so we don't have to speak of this.
"Well I should be going now," I say while grabbing my books and retreating to the door, "Have a good evening Professors."
"As you, Ms. Duchannes. " Dumbledore said while I walked out.
***
That is what has been going through my head all day today. And every day since then. It's been two weeks and I haven't spoken to Severus since that night besides in potions class. I haven't had the nerve to even show up to my apprenticeship because I can't face him and what we did. Not only did I want to avoid the situation I wanted to feel the feelings that came with it. I feel dirty every time Harry has kissed me since that night a rush of guilt goes through me. I know I should come clean but I just can't tell him 'hey Harry, I cheated on you by kissing our Professor, the one you hate the most'. That wouldn't go over so well.
As all that goes through my mind Harry and I were walking to the room Neville found for training. I have yet to see it yet, and Harry tells me that training has been going well and that today we are working on the Patronus charm today and I was ecstatic.
"Okay, today we are going to be working on the Patronus charm," Harry told us as we stood around the room.
"Expecto Patronum," Harry says with a wave of his wand.
A bright light blue light shot out of Harry's Wand at the end was a big buck. Everyone was awed in amazement.
"Okay, now you try."
Everyone separated and started to try to do the spell.
"Think of a powerful memory, the happiest you can remember. " Harry said while walking around the room. "Allow it to fill you up, keep trying Seamus. "
He said more but I wasn't paying attention, I was too busy trying to think about a happy memory to complete the Patronus charm. I tried to think of moments Harry and I shared but no such luck. Then kiss I shared with Severus kept replaying in my mind.
"Expecto Patronum!" I said.
Light shoots out of my wand and out comes a doe. I hear some people cheer that I already completed the spell. But then Finnagen opened his mouth.
Stupid Seamus Finnagen.
"Look, Harry and Lily have matching patronus !"
I hear some girls aww and Harry chuckle. I felt him grab my waist and give me a soft kiss. I felt sparks but not as much as I do with Severus. I need to get this sorted out. I need to just go to Severus and tell him what happened between us was a mistake and that we should never speak of it again. Being with Harry is safer and more logical, no need to mess it up by sneaking around without the most hated professor in Hogwarts. Well besides Umbridge of course.
I decided that now was a better time than any to pull the bandaid off this mess and I was supposed to be in his office at 6 so I quickly gave Harry a kiss on the cheek before running out of the room. The knots that filled my stomach were tight but at least I got a good laugh before this messy disaster because Filch was asleep on the chair watching the door.
For Flich being the person Umbridge trust to catch us, he sure doesn't do a good job.
(Severus's POV)
I think I must have messed everything up when I let myself kiss her. She has been avoiding me and hasn't shown up to any of her extra lessons. I have no idea why I am still sitting in my office waiting and hoping she might show up tonight. It was already past six and she still hasn't shown up. Everything was going great until Albus showed up. I still remember how adorable she looked when she started to blush in embarrassment. Albus was actually happy Lily and I kissed, what a crazy old man.
"Hey, Sev." She spoke breaking me out of my thoughts.
She looked so adorable today, her red hair pulled back into a ponytail, her green eye's shining so bright in this dark gloomy room.
"You actually came?" I question her.
"Um yes?" Lily questioned more than stated, "I actually have a question I was hoping you could help me with, it's more about the defense against the dark arts rather than potions though."
I simply nod my head waiting for her to continue. She sat her books down on the table and then sat on my desk the way she did the night we.. kissed.
"Well, we were practicing the pratronus charm and Harry's patronus is a buck and mine is a doe. is that supposed to mean anything?"
Her patronus is a doe, just like Lily's. She is getting more and more like Lily every day. I need to keep reminding myself of what Albus told me that night,
"Don't forget she is Lily Duchannes, not Lily Potter."
"Well, that only means you have fallen in love with Mr.Potter," I say kind of harshly.
I was not mad at Lily it was just stupid Potter, how is it that these potters always try to take my Lily? But I guess what I said wasn't exactly true, my patronus is a doe but that was only because of Lily, my sweet darling Lily. I need to forget about her and focus on the Lily I have now. At least I can fix and not ruin what this Lily and I have.
"I don't think that can be true," Lily spoke with a laugh.
"Why not?" I question her while leaning forward on my books.
"Because I don't think I'm in love with Harry when all I can think about is the night we kissed." She spoke before covering her mouth with her pale hands, "I shouldn't have said that."
A smirk played on my lips, of course, she felt how I felt. We both shared the same sparks that night.
"I haven't stopped thinking about that night either," I spoke with a hushed voice while tucking a stray hair behind her ear.
What I didn't expect was for her to pull back and give herself distance from me.
"Listen Sev, I want us to be friends, but I don't think this is right." She started causing me to open my mouth slightly in shock. "I don't become an adult until January this whole relationship is a danger to both of us, plus I don't want to ruin our friendship."
Our friendship? Am I being placed as a friend to another Lily as she goes into the sunset with Potter? This all feels like Deja Vu.
"You may leave now Ms. Duchannes," I spoke harsher than I intended.
"But-"
"Leave."
As she got up to walk away I could sense her trying to get a glimpse into my eyes but I didn't want to glace back because I was fighting off the tears that could drop at any moment. Why did I think that this time things would go in my favor?
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She's Not Lily (Harry Potter/ Severus Snape fan fic)
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