The New Boys In Town (Book Two)

Confessions

I sat there on the living room couch, smoking a cigar while I wrote lyrics down.

"I see you're working on more music" Freddie chirped as he kissed my on the cheek.

"Mhm.." I groaned, still angry at Freddie.

He sighed, sitting in front of me. "Darling, please understand.. I'm just-"

I stopped him, "What, Freddie? You're just what? Not ready, are ready, stressed out, wanting a break from music, what?!" I raised my voice.

I looked at Freddie, I suddenly noticed tears were slowly falling from his eyes.

I looked down in pain.

"I never meant to hurt you.." He whispered.

I shook my head, "Freddie, you never hurt me. I just.." I shrugged, not knowing what to say.

"I need to tell you something" Freddie's voice cracked as he tried not to cry.

I looked at him, "What?" I gently said.

"I've cheated on you..." He said, looking down with guilt.

His words stung my heart, Not again.. 

"Okay.." I softly said, feeling a rush of tears form in my eyes.

Freddie looked straight into my eyes, "I think..." He breathed heavily, "I think I might be bisexual" He bit his lips.

I looked at him, "Bisexual?" I whispered as hot tears fell.

He slowly nodded.

"How do you know?" My voice wobbled.

Freddie frowned, "I cheated on you with a man, I-I was curious.. A-And.." He sobbed into his hands.

"I'm so sorry, Lily.. I never wanted to hurt you like this" He cried.

I pulled him into my arms as I stroked his back, "No.. Don't apologize, Freddie. I-I understand.." 

Freddie whimpered.

"How long ago was this?" I asked.

"A few weeks before we got engaged" He admitted.

I gasped, "Why?" I whispered as I cried.

"My mum always wanted me to get married and have kids, it's against my religion to be bisexual... I.. I wanted to do the right thing" He sobbed.

Freddie pulled away from me, he held onto my hands as he looked into my eyes. "I love you. I truly, truly do, Lily." He cried.

"I meant everything I said in this relationship. You are and you always will be the love of my life" He smiled, tears still falling.

"I'm crazy in love with you, but this isn't right." He said.

I nodded, biting my lip.

Freddie looked away, shrugging, "I just like both of the sexes." He softly said.

I let go of Freddie's hand, and stared at my ring. "I guess you want this back, huh?" I laughed.

Freddie chuckled, "You keep it, darling. Because if things were different, you would've been my wife." He smiled.

I cried again, Freddie pulled me into his arms.

"I love you, Freddie. Don't forget it" I sobbed.

"I know, darling" He rubbed my back, "I love you as well, Ms. Moore" Freddie chuckled.

"I'll be there for you, Freddie. I promise" I said.

Freddie let go of me and smiled, "Thank you, Lily" He whispered.

I nodded.

There was a moment of silence.

"What are we going to do now..?" I questioned.

Freddie shrugged, "I'll go public with it eventually. The boys already know..." He looked down guiltily.

"Freddie, don't you ever apologize for being you. Don't be ashamed of loving people" I caressed his face.

Freddie cried, "Thank you" He said again.

Freddie leaned in and kissed my lips, "Don't worry, this won't be our last.. I promise" He smiled at me.

I smiled back, "Good" I whispered.