The night terrors are back too. Every night now and I always wake up just to go throw up with an achy body making me feel like I haven't slept in days. I've lost over twenty pounds despite working out and my stomach has become so sunken it I can see my ribs easily.
I wear huge hoodies to school and keep my hood up just so people can't tell how weak I have gotten. It doesn't help that I'm constantly covered in bruises either. Why are they having this effect on me!?
The guys head out sooner so that they can better ignore me too. So they don't see me getting beaten up.
Did that wall really block out this much stuff? I put a few more chips in my mouth, trying to gain back some of that weight as I stare at my screen.
I watch Minecraft youtube vids, bored out of my mind. I hear a knock on my door.
I say nothing.
The door opens and I see Henry standing there.
"No. Not in my house."
I quickly grab a few books off my nightstand and chuck them at him as I stand up.
"Get the (bleep) out of my house!"
He is hit with a few and dodges a few.
I run out of books and grab a lamp as he looks at me.
"No! Stop! I came to apologize!"
I still hold the lamp above my head as I stare at him.
"If you don't leave now, I will bash your head in with this," I say coldly as I hold the lamp.
"Okay, okay. I came to apologize. Alright?"
I stare at him.
"Look, I'm sorry."
"For what part? The time you shattered my heart? The times you cheated on me? The times you beat me till I couldn't stand? The times you made me have to miss school because I couldn't move? The times you lied to me? When you made fun of me?"
He frowns deeply.
"Or how about the time you almost raped me? Or you know, when you lied to the guys about what you and I had? When you made me lose the only good friends I ever had? When you made me lose the only good boyfriend I ever had?" I say tearing up.
He stays silent.
"You know how lonely it is to be beaten up, fight alone and picked on every day of your life since you were seven years old? I lost my parents and had to watch them die in front of me. I had no friends and my foster parents were never around much until one died and one almost killed me!"
He says nothing and just stares at me as tears fall from my face but my voice is perfectly clear.
"Do you have any idea how lonely and hard that is? Or how it feels to have hope and friends only for someone to rip it away from you just because they can? Do you have any idea how hard that is?"
My voice cracks.
"The only people in my life who cared about me and stuck around till you took that away!"
I slam down the lamp as I stare at him and tears fall from my face.
The door creaks open and I watch the guys including Leo and Willow all come in, looking at me sympathetically.
No. No, you guys don't get to come and want to help only when I'm broken to this point. I quickly rush past them all and barge out the door and they follow.
"Beth-" Gray starts.
"No."
I quickly slide on my shoes at the door and they are about to reach me but I run out the door and away from the house, down that gravel street.
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Behind The Hoodie
Teen Fiction"Just remember, if we get caught you're deaf and I don't speak English." "You're over thinking this, trust me. We won't get caught," he says with a smirk as he scans over my face, staring at my lips for a moment until stopping when his eyes meet min...
