Temptations [Niall Horan]

Chapter 49

(A/N: Listen to "Talking To The Moon" by Bruno Mars while reading this part!)

-----------Niall's POV-----------  

I shut my door, my back against the hard wood as I sunk down to the floor. I had been crying alone in that park for an hour, until I had had enough strength to pick up my sorry ass and walk back here... back to the place where I'd spent so many days and nights with Ronnie.

My heart ached to hold her in my arms again, to tell  her how much I loved her... to tell her how happy she made me. 

The tears continued to fall down my cheeks into my lap as I sat in my darkened apartment, nothing but the light from the moon shining down upon me. I sat up, walking to the window and looking up at the clear night sky. I stood in silence, my tears stopping as I stared at the pale light shining down. Ronnie's face suddenly appeared, the sadness on her face unbearable for me to look at. Her words echoed in the back of my mind.

"Stay away from me..."

I found myself pressing my hand against the window, trying desperately to reach out to her. But as soon as I blinked, I was staring back at the moon... she was gone.

"Come back," I whispered, my tears starting again. I looked at the faint reflection of myself in the window. I was a complete mess. My hair was matted to my hear, my eyes red and puffy from having cried so long and hard. I looked like a fucking child.

But I didn't give a damn. How could I, when the love of my life was gone? No chance she would ever talk to me again.

I turned, walking to my bedroom and collapsing onto the bed. I sunk down, lying on the side she had slept on so many nights. The faint smell of her sweet perfume still lingered on the pillow. I couldn't help myself as my thoughts drifted back to only a few nights ago, when I had last held her in my arms. Her head rested against my shoulder as she had kissed my neck. 

God, her kisses.... her full lips...

"God damnit!" I yelled, sitting up and shoving the lamp off my bedside table. I watched as it shattered into a million pieces on the floor. My hands found my hair, getting ready to rip it out of my head. I was going crazy...

First, I had wanted to kill myself, to end it all. And now... now I just wanted to break things. I wanted to destroy the fucking apartment, and everything that reminded me of her. But as I sat there I realized... in order to destroy everything, I'd have to destroy myself.

I couldn't get her out of my head.

----------Ronnie's POV----------

I peeked through the curtains, staring at the brightly lit sky. It was the first time in a while that the moon had actually shown through the clouds in the sky. London weather was always crappy. But not tonight...

It was a shame I couldn't spend this moment with Niall. I hadn't stopped thinking about him since I'd gotten home. Was he thinking about me? Was he thinking about what he'd done to me? Did he ever care?

Did he even love me?

Stop, I told myself. He betrayed you. He doesn't love you. He cheated.

I slammed my palms against the window, letting out a sob. How could he do this to me?! We were in love, we were engaged! And he had to go and ruin it all. And now to make matters worse, I was truly alone.

I sunk to my knees, sobbing my heart out. I'd never been this hurt in my entire life. How would I ever get over him? He was the love of my life... I thought I'd be able to spend the rest of my life with him, but not after something like this. I wanted to see him desperately. But at the same time... I never wanted to see him again.