Impulse

EXCERPT

Story of my life, disappointments always followed me like bees to a honeypot. Today i sit across from a man that has caused me a lot of pain and even as he laid helplessly on the hospital bed he had power over me.

People say that i have been charmed to the glow of his beautiful face, i wish it was true and his beautiful face was all that kept me glued to him for today that would have changed. Seeing him like this broke my already bleeding heart, i sat by the hospital bed and took his hands into mine, my tears ran faster than my heart raced. They dropped on both our hands. I leaned by his ear and whispered "please don't leave me, i wont know what to do with myself, i am lost without you"

I was hoping he could hear me and i hoped he would open his deep set eyes and look at me like he used to. His lips where so dry that the skin pealed. "God knows i love you"

The door opened and i turned around, releasing his hand immediately. I found her gawking at me "get out!" she said with an authority, the crown on her head and power within her grasp, and as flawless as a queen she looked like one about to attend a wedding, i tried to find the worry in her eyes but they were missing. I wonder what kind of wife wouldn't be worried to see her husband in such state "you either get the hell out or i get you dragged out. I don't want you near my husband"

Her words with its full intent to hurt. I quietly stood up and walked up to her,  she was nobody to me, just an unfortunate curse that plagued me of my happiness. I walked up to her "i just came to see ho.."

She hushed me with hurtful words "I don't care why you're here, my husband does not want you here, when will you ever just leave us alone?"
I wiped the tears that flooded my face "I'm sorry, I'll go" i went as far as the door "don't ever come back" she commanded, but she doesn't command me, we both know that it was impossible, i have to know he's alright, I can't stay away knowing that any moment might be his last.
I decided to let her feel the power of marriage, the power she holds as his wife, for standing next to her, i am nothing to him in every bodies eyes. Everybody except the person that matters, him.

I walked the halls of the hospital defeated, downhearted, dejected, dragging my heavy head slowly across the hospital.

I saw her in front of me wearing a different attire, I squeezed my eyes again to confirm my views. "Assalamu'alaikum" she said, i could hardly heard her, i could hardly hear anything, i frowned my face, its like my head was put in a bug bowl of water, and i couldn't quite understand the events that where unfolding before my eyes. "Assalamu'alaikum" she said again but now i could hear her a bit clearer. She tapped my shoulders "Are you ok? You should go home and get some rest" she said, why was she being nice to me?

Oh wait! They are twins, it just hit me, I can't believe i forgot that small basic detail. I must really be out of it then.

"Thank you" i managed to say back, possibly inaudibly.

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