It's all too much. Too many feelings. I hate it. I can't stop. I don't know how to.
I blabber and blabber and then it becomes to much. I can't do that anymore.
He complimented me though.
It wasn't much but it still lit up my insides with joy.
It made my cheeks heat up and made my smile go wider.
I hate that he has so much control over me. I hate it.
But part of me doesn't want it to stop. I like him. A lot.
I hate myself for feeling this way though. It hurts.
More than you could ever imagine.
I don't want to feel these things but they just seem to get stuck on the on switch and I don't know how to turn it off.
What next?
Will I go completely insane?
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Thoughts and Constellations
PoetryA year full of ups and downs, written down to make someone, somewhere feel something. This is my personal journal published for the world to see. All my thoughts and feelings for a year. It has no plot. It has no ending. It just ends. Good luck tryi...
