Brain Dump
Empty. Sad. School. Divorce. Depressed. Happy? No. Useless. Worthless. Gone. Carefree? No. Homework. Crap. Messy. Grateful? I don't know. Ugly. Untalented. Creative? I don't know. Angry. Misery. Blah.
They're just a bunch of words just like school is just a bunch of people. So much school missed yet I don't care. My grades seem pointless but I know they aren't. It was easier to be depressed in seventh grade when grades didn't matter. Suddenly my wrists are burning and I don't know what to do. So many questions about who I am and where to start. I'm drawing a blank. I let everyone down. Ever myself. Suddenly my favorite color is black and my heart once full of joy is now empty and hard. Trying to describe what it feels like to live in this broken world and yet it seems so hard to find the right words. I'd rather throw around curse words and sulk all day then actually figure it out. They say suck it up, the world is an unfair place. Don't you think I know that?
Divorce. Favoritism. Depression. Surgery. Perv.
My life is made of unfairness. Crap happens and I'm just expected to deal with it.
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Thoughts and Constellations
PoetryA year full of ups and downs, written down to make someone, somewhere feel something. This is my personal journal published for the world to see. All my thoughts and feelings for a year. It has no plot. It has no ending. It just ends. Good luck tryi...
