How could I be so stupid?
Time after time again I think that I could make a difference or that I matter. What a joke.
I need to stop with this whole hope thing. It's getting old. I'm getting tired of being built up just to be torn down.
I hate it. I feel like I'm drowning in this whole high school thing and I don't know how to get past it.
It's stressing me out and with the play being over I hate school even more.
I don't get to see my friends after school and I've gone back to having no life.
I'm so happy that we have a short week. Less stress for me. I just don't know how to fix it.
I'm struggling to not fall asleep in my morning classes and I've been staying up late doing my homework, it's killing me.
I just want to have theatre practice again. I need my friends. I hate having no social life. It sucks.
In other news me and Nora got into another fight. Great. She just doesn't understand. No one does.
I don't know how to explain what's going on in my head or how I feel.
That's why I push it all away.
I don't need extra stress in my life. I have enough on my plate already.
I just wish it was simpler.
I wish it could be easier.
But now I'm growing up and I hate it.
I just need someone to be here for me. I need someone to talk to and to hang out with.
Someone who will listen to me and actually care.
I'm constantly at a crossroad and I have no clue which direction to go.
It's a constant struggle yet no one seems to notice.
So I put on a fake smile and pretend everything's okay.
I'm fine.
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Thoughts and Constellations
PoesíaA year full of ups and downs, written down to make someone, somewhere feel something. This is my personal journal published for the world to see. All my thoughts and feelings for a year. It has no plot. It has no ending. It just ends. Good luck tryi...
